08-18-2019, 09:16 PM
Day 168
What's weird is I have been having trouble sleeping the last couple of nights. I've been staying up late and actually went into a bit of a super creative manic type phase for a couple of hours where I got a ton of ideas for my Saturday TTRPG I'm running. A couple seem incredibly like incredibly good ideas and one setup I don't know how I came up with. Still need to develop the ideas later but some really good stuff.
Otherwise, life has been going on. I'm still having mixed feelings about switching back to the hybrid or not. Part of me wants to switch back because I think it has a stronger effect but part of me also wants to finish the masked and then go through my journal to see if I can actually spot a difference. My problem is that I don't think I can identify a lot of the changes.
One of the things that bothers me the most is that there are things I'm procrastinating that I know I need to get done. I don't know why I haven't but there's some type of latent fear that keeps me from doing them. I also need to put in another call about the position I was applying for and check in on some other possible jobs. Doubt I'll get too lucky but that may be pessimism talking after so long without work.
What's weird is I have been having trouble sleeping the last couple of nights. I've been staying up late and actually went into a bit of a super creative manic type phase for a couple of hours where I got a ton of ideas for my Saturday TTRPG I'm running. A couple seem incredibly like incredibly good ideas and one setup I don't know how I came up with. Still need to develop the ideas later but some really good stuff.
Otherwise, life has been going on. I'm still having mixed feelings about switching back to the hybrid or not. Part of me wants to switch back because I think it has a stronger effect but part of me also wants to finish the masked and then go through my journal to see if I can actually spot a difference. My problem is that I don't think I can identify a lot of the changes.
One of the things that bothers me the most is that there are things I'm procrastinating that I know I need to get done. I don't know why I haven't but there's some type of latent fear that keeps me from doing them. I also need to put in another call about the position I was applying for and check in on some other possible jobs. Doubt I'll get too lucky but that may be pessimism talking after so long without work.
