Spent some time this morning working on something we haven't released yet, and didn't even realize I was working until GF got mad at me for working on my day off. Wait, it's my day off? But... I don't want a day off! I want to keep going. Oh, alright... and I forced myself to go take some time off.
There was a period of time today when I felt depressed. At first I didn't know why I was depressed. I just laid down, fully dressed, and stayed there, eyes open, unblinking. My dogs came over and snuggled me, and my cat did too. I was feeling the depression out, trying to understand it, and it was teetering on the level of "I'll just lay here unresponsive and stare into oblivion until whenever", but I decided to try to pull myself out of it and go do something outside. Getting up wasn't easy at first, but as I expected, I felt better when I started getting some sunlight.
We went to a park where she did her relaxation thing and I rode my electric unicycle. I wear full gear, which is slightly annoying to put on, but after hitting the road at 30 mph I don't regret putting it on, no matter what anyone says or how dorky it looks. It was 95 F, so I stayed close by so that she wouldn't have to deal with me taking 20 minutes to get back from a long ride if she started to overheat. But the lack of freedom just made me more depressed, so I put it away and we went to the river walk. By the time we had parked, I understood why I was depressed: E3 was hitting levels and nerves that it had never hit before, and the result was depression. Doubtless depression in the face of resistance being hopeless and useless, and my subconscious executing the script regardless.
At it's worst it was barely moderate, most of the time just a light feeling. We ended up discovering a free concert that was being put on, sitting in the grass under a big oak tree by the river and enjoying the music, the breeze and each other's company. Oh, and some King Mackerel smoked fish dip that was freakin' amazing, which we had discovered at the nearby green market. Damned fish dip was so good that we ate too much and now we are over an hour and a half late for dinner and still not hungry.
But getting out made me feel better.
Then we got home and I started working again, tried to stop myself by reading some interesting stuff online and browsing some art websites, found myself working again, and basically repeated this several times.
I feel like working is fun again... I haven't felt like this in 2 or 3 years now. It's kind of nice. But I do need to take some time off. So does gf, so we have decided that we are going on a road trip Tuesday, and we will not be working or answering our phones. Going to just go and have a good time doing various things in the area and relaxing.
Secretly, I can't wait to get back to working on USLM 4.1 tomorrow. Shhh! Don't tell gf, she'll get mad at me.
There was a period of time today when I felt depressed. At first I didn't know why I was depressed. I just laid down, fully dressed, and stayed there, eyes open, unblinking. My dogs came over and snuggled me, and my cat did too. I was feeling the depression out, trying to understand it, and it was teetering on the level of "I'll just lay here unresponsive and stare into oblivion until whenever", but I decided to try to pull myself out of it and go do something outside. Getting up wasn't easy at first, but as I expected, I felt better when I started getting some sunlight.
We went to a park where she did her relaxation thing and I rode my electric unicycle. I wear full gear, which is slightly annoying to put on, but after hitting the road at 30 mph I don't regret putting it on, no matter what anyone says or how dorky it looks. It was 95 F, so I stayed close by so that she wouldn't have to deal with me taking 20 minutes to get back from a long ride if she started to overheat. But the lack of freedom just made me more depressed, so I put it away and we went to the river walk. By the time we had parked, I understood why I was depressed: E3 was hitting levels and nerves that it had never hit before, and the result was depression. Doubtless depression in the face of resistance being hopeless and useless, and my subconscious executing the script regardless.
At it's worst it was barely moderate, most of the time just a light feeling. We ended up discovering a free concert that was being put on, sitting in the grass under a big oak tree by the river and enjoying the music, the breeze and each other's company. Oh, and some King Mackerel smoked fish dip that was freakin' amazing, which we had discovered at the nearby green market. Damned fish dip was so good that we ate too much and now we are over an hour and a half late for dinner and still not hungry.
But getting out made me feel better.
Then we got home and I started working again, tried to stop myself by reading some interesting stuff online and browsing some art websites, found myself working again, and basically repeated this several times.
I feel like working is fun again... I haven't felt like this in 2 or 3 years now. It's kind of nice. But I do need to take some time off. So does gf, so we have decided that we are going on a road trip Tuesday, and we will not be working or answering our phones. Going to just go and have a good time doing various things in the area and relaxing.
Secretly, I can't wait to get back to working on USLM 4.1 tomorrow. Shhh! Don't tell gf, she'll get mad at me.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
