Shannon's UMS Journal

[Shawn]

And this might help some of you.

It's funny that I have seen the same video about a week ago.

We went to the beach after dinner, and it felt very nice to relax, but I wanted to get home and keep working on USLM.  When we finished walking at the beach and I got home, I immediately continued working.  A few hours later gf walks into my office and offers me sex.  To my amazement, I had to answer that I was too tired.  (That almost never happens!) I thought about it and realized that it wasn't that I didn't want to have sex, it was that the program was at the early stages of doing what it is designed to do, and it was working me so hard that I simply didn't have any energy left.  I also realized that as the program accomplishes the changes that it is designed to make to the listener subconsciously, this won't happen anymore.  Making all these changes at top speed all at once is hugely exhausting, and working this hard on top of it.  At that point, we went to bed instead.

Is it possible to make this process smoother and maybe slower if the person require that? Sleep disturbance and low energy were a big problem with the latest sub versions and as someone who is not self employed I cannot simply take a nap when I want to but I must remain fully funtional if I want to do a good job and that was impossible in long term with that level of exhaustion. This was different when I started the sub journey because I was student back there, but now it really kills me.

In regard to the second part I marked, I am still fighting that exhaustion I experienced even after not listening to subs for a long time. It is possible that I got stuck somewhere in the process and the program couldn't finish what it has begun? In this case I am just not sure what to do, because I am still so exhausted that I had to reduce my work times and starting subs again seem not possible at the moment without stopping work like for good or getting fired. I just hope this will fade. On the other side I seem to still process something because I have many dreams which seem fear related.

I apologize for writing so much in your journal, but it seemed related to what you wrote and I didn't want to just copy the citations from your journal anywhere else. If it is better for you, you can move that and the response to my last journal (Some kind of journal...) or to the discussion thread.