05-27-2019, 01:07 PM
61 nights of E3, 3 loops. Hybrid, Speakers.
In all honesty the last week I have not been taking any action towards my goals. I don't know what has happened, I just feel really different. I keep thinking to myself why do I feel different now, how do I get like this, what caused it? ..But for the life of me I don't know why.
I am gonna have to force myself this week as best as I can and I know that when I do I feel a million times better than I do now.
I suppose there is this particular work I have got to do, basically a mock exams to prepare for my exam, but I get nervous thinking about it and when I set myself the daily task to do it, I get worried.
I understand now, that I can never truly wait to feel inspired to do it. I do understand now from experience that the motivation comes once I start and achieve a task. I have made myself do these things before, but lately the process of forcing myself seems more challenging.
I choose not to leave this too long now though, as I have built up a lot of momentum towards a lot of goals I have and continue them on as soon as I can will be in my best interest.
I intend to get back on the horse tomorrow and achieve tasks towards my goals.
Other things have popped up, but rather not dwell and write about everything, only certain things I feel comfortable writing about and what is most important to me and my goals.
Another feeling I have lately is that I want to go on holiday or something, I just would really love to get away and do something different in another country. I have requested some holiday days off at the end of June, beginning of July time and I am thinking about just going away somewhere. I would love for it to be just completely new experience.
I have 3 exams in the beginning of July. It would make sense to go after lol, but how it is working out that I would go away before and then when I come back it will be exam time. I think that is still good. I intend to study, do what is required of me to pass the exams leading up to it and the holiday could refresh me for the exams lol. But yeah this feeling of wanting to just take a holiday is growing rapidly and once I start the year long course in September (which is required for the degree I want to do) I will have to focus on my study, so best to get something in now while I can.
In all honesty the last week I have not been taking any action towards my goals. I don't know what has happened, I just feel really different. I keep thinking to myself why do I feel different now, how do I get like this, what caused it? ..But for the life of me I don't know why.
I am gonna have to force myself this week as best as I can and I know that when I do I feel a million times better than I do now.
I suppose there is this particular work I have got to do, basically a mock exams to prepare for my exam, but I get nervous thinking about it and when I set myself the daily task to do it, I get worried.
I understand now, that I can never truly wait to feel inspired to do it. I do understand now from experience that the motivation comes once I start and achieve a task. I have made myself do these things before, but lately the process of forcing myself seems more challenging.
I choose not to leave this too long now though, as I have built up a lot of momentum towards a lot of goals I have and continue them on as soon as I can will be in my best interest.
I intend to get back on the horse tomorrow and achieve tasks towards my goals.
Other things have popped up, but rather not dwell and write about everything, only certain things I feel comfortable writing about and what is most important to me and my goals.
Another feeling I have lately is that I want to go on holiday or something, I just would really love to get away and do something different in another country. I have requested some holiday days off at the end of June, beginning of July time and I am thinking about just going away somewhere. I would love for it to be just completely new experience.
I have 3 exams in the beginning of July. It would make sense to go after lol, but how it is working out that I would go away before and then when I come back it will be exam time. I think that is still good. I intend to study, do what is required of me to pass the exams leading up to it and the holiday could refresh me for the exams lol. But yeah this feeling of wanting to just take a holiday is growing rapidly and once I start the year long course in September (which is required for the degree I want to do) I will have to focus on my study, so best to get something in now while I can.
