05-19-2019, 02:40 AM
(05-18-2019, 09:50 PM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote:(05-18-2019, 03:52 PM)OberynMartell Wrote: Look at my posting history, I had an tremendous time because of the sub. Somewhere along the line things changed, I don't know why, I don't know how. However we are in this together, to create the things I experienced for everybody here. I wish it was easy, but if things are easy why would we even try?
I am now still in a moment in my life where things aren't as easy. Personal stuff and also my mindset isn't in a place where it's only positive and a winning one. I know that I can become that guy again. I was the guy who got picked up by beautiful women, so much that it ruined friendships for me. Insecure people will make you feel bad about your 'luck'. I think that's where I'm at right now. I am still a popular guy with women, at my job everybody is talking about me. How women tend to flock around me. Only this time, no sex. Why? I gained a lot of weight. Again. I am mad, angry at myself. Maybe it is my subconscious, having success is not something it was used to, so now it tries to make me fat again. I don't know, it seems like I'm rambling but I truly believe in the power of the sub. My experience is something magical, and I really want to get there again. Time will tell when we get there
So the sub can't get you laid if you're fat?
No that's the how my mind tries to trick me. You see I was always on the heavy side even as a child. So I thought that being overweight kept me from being popular with girls. I did lose a lot of weight eventually, and gained a lot of it back. When did I succeed with women? With DMSI, being overweight again, but I got laid a lot then. I KNOW it's not being fat, it's the way I think. Does that make any sense?
"It is a big and beautiful world. Most of us live and die in the same corner where we were born and never get to see any of it. I don't want to be most of us.'"