I think I have reached a new low point with regard to my self-esteem. Or maybe I see for the first time how low it really is.
There is a lot coming up about being abandoned over and over again by the people that I felt the closest to. It's like peeling an onion. But I think I haven't reached the core yet. I only see a pattern for now. And how I intentionally create walls around me to pre-empt experiencing such situations again, mainly by shutting relationships down before they have a chance to evolve into something too close. Which creates a very lonely and bleak life. Talk about stupid feedback loops.
There is a lot coming up about being abandoned over and over again by the people that I felt the closest to. It's like peeling an onion. But I think I haven't reached the core yet. I only see a pattern for now. And how I intentionally create walls around me to pre-empt experiencing such situations again, mainly by shutting relationships down before they have a chance to evolve into something too close. Which creates a very lonely and bleak life. Talk about stupid feedback loops.
_ - Third Stone From The Sun - _
