03-13-2019, 12:30 PM
LTU 5 Day 17(Off day)
So some more updates on the whole girl station. As I said in my last post I ended things with her not this sat but the last sat. That following Tuesday she texted m,e and we chatted for a bit before I stopped replying. The next day she texted me again saying she hated not talking to me and wanted to go back to how things were with us. I told her I didnt think that was a good idea since the other guy was still in the situation and things had also changed in the fact that I was no longer unmatched to the relationship and just being friends with benefits but was interested in possibly something more with her.
Some arguing ensued for awhile then it eventually died down and we started texting each other like old times and joking around and just talking about random stuff the following day. She told me why she started liking me so much and about all the good qualities that I had. Later in that day(last thursdayy) she randomly asked if she could come over because she was nearby. I was still hesitent with continuing the whole thing with the other guy still in the picture, but I really missed her and the moment got the best of me so I allowed her to come over.
She was acting super nice and submissive towards me, her vboice being up a few octives higher than normal and all flirty. She was also wearing a shirt of mine underneath hers(that she STOLE from me one night, but I let her keep it being a true gentleman and all)We talked for a bit about her sister that she doesnt get along with at all who just had a baby and that whole situation. Then shortly after that she got on me and straddled me on the couch and we started kissing and making out a bit, and then just being all flirty and talking about things. It felt really good and I realized how much I had missed her as I looked into her eyes and stroked her hair as she smiled at me and talked to me.
We ended up having sex shortly after that that was really good and she was soaking wet from it. Maybe a little tmi, but I always talk dirty to her during it and I said to her "Who owns this P****" and she said "You do"(Take that ex) She had to leave shortly after because she was using her friends car and had to pick her up from work. When she got home she called me and we talked on the phone for about an hour or so.
The next day though I realized that I just didnt think I could do this anymore. Be in the situation while being unattached like I was in the beginning. So I told her if she wanted to continue talking and being in my life that she had to choose me and ditch her ex completely. She still couldnt make the decision to completely let go of him though, but begged me to not stop talking to her while she couldnt decide. I told her sorry but thats just the way it has to be. So she finally agreed to leave me alone unless she could decide to cut him out and choose me completely. That was last friday night and we have not texted since.
She has subtly still tried communicating with me though as she keeps liking everything i put on fb, commented on posts i commented on as well and liked my comments, and even sent me a message of a fb meme on fb. I havent given her any sort of sign back though. So that is where things stand with that sitatuion as of now.
As for other things in general, I have still been experiencing some emotional and mental distress, but maybe to a slightly lesser extent than before. I messed up a few days with my new diet and went back to caffeine a few times last week, but since sunday even though the urges was there at times I have been sticking to my new very healthy plant based diet and zero caffeine. Still been slacking on work ethic when it comes to getting some other stuff done i would like to do and eliminating/cutting down some other bad habits, but the emotional and mental distress I have still been experiencing has been making it hard to go through with that as of yet. Thats about it for now
So some more updates on the whole girl station. As I said in my last post I ended things with her not this sat but the last sat. That following Tuesday she texted m,e and we chatted for a bit before I stopped replying. The next day she texted me again saying she hated not talking to me and wanted to go back to how things were with us. I told her I didnt think that was a good idea since the other guy was still in the situation and things had also changed in the fact that I was no longer unmatched to the relationship and just being friends with benefits but was interested in possibly something more with her.
Some arguing ensued for awhile then it eventually died down and we started texting each other like old times and joking around and just talking about random stuff the following day. She told me why she started liking me so much and about all the good qualities that I had. Later in that day(last thursdayy) she randomly asked if she could come over because she was nearby. I was still hesitent with continuing the whole thing with the other guy still in the picture, but I really missed her and the moment got the best of me so I allowed her to come over.
She was acting super nice and submissive towards me, her vboice being up a few octives higher than normal and all flirty. She was also wearing a shirt of mine underneath hers(that she STOLE from me one night, but I let her keep it being a true gentleman and all)We talked for a bit about her sister that she doesnt get along with at all who just had a baby and that whole situation. Then shortly after that she got on me and straddled me on the couch and we started kissing and making out a bit, and then just being all flirty and talking about things. It felt really good and I realized how much I had missed her as I looked into her eyes and stroked her hair as she smiled at me and talked to me.
We ended up having sex shortly after that that was really good and she was soaking wet from it. Maybe a little tmi, but I always talk dirty to her during it and I said to her "Who owns this P****" and she said "You do"(Take that ex) She had to leave shortly after because she was using her friends car and had to pick her up from work. When she got home she called me and we talked on the phone for about an hour or so.
The next day though I realized that I just didnt think I could do this anymore. Be in the situation while being unattached like I was in the beginning. So I told her if she wanted to continue talking and being in my life that she had to choose me and ditch her ex completely. She still couldnt make the decision to completely let go of him though, but begged me to not stop talking to her while she couldnt decide. I told her sorry but thats just the way it has to be. So she finally agreed to leave me alone unless she could decide to cut him out and choose me completely. That was last friday night and we have not texted since.
She has subtly still tried communicating with me though as she keeps liking everything i put on fb, commented on posts i commented on as well and liked my comments, and even sent me a message of a fb meme on fb. I havent given her any sort of sign back though. So that is where things stand with that sitatuion as of now.
As for other things in general, I have still been experiencing some emotional and mental distress, but maybe to a slightly lesser extent than before. I messed up a few days with my new diet and went back to caffeine a few times last week, but since sunday even though the urges was there at times I have been sticking to my new very healthy plant based diet and zero caffeine. Still been slacking on work ethic when it comes to getting some other stuff done i would like to do and eliminating/cutting down some other bad habits, but the emotional and mental distress I have still been experiencing has been making it hard to go through with that as of yet. Thats about it for now
