02-06-2019, 10:24 PM
I watched porn and fapped, just was really horny. For some reason I came WAY faster than I usually do and I just didn’t get the physical sensation I usually do from it. Usually I really enjoy it because I can choose when I come and it’s just satisfying and I can enjoy it for what it is. It’s the only time I can feel sexually proud like a man because no girls seem to accept my sexuality. But I didn’t get my satisfaction today. So now it seems like fapping is just not as satisfying if I’m not doing it on a regular basis.
I hope I stop waking up in the middle of the night as often as I do. Not sure if it’s the sub or just the fact that ever since the cleanse my hormones doubled and now my body heat is noticeably higher at night.
Already started my next round of loops. I’m just curious how exactly the average person who’s never used a sub before would respond to the kind of turmoil Ive experienced ever since I started DMSI. And seeing things that make it seem like it’s working but then for them to go away without a trace of results coming in the future.
It’s whatever. I’ll just keep doing what I can for my personal progress.
I hope I stop waking up in the middle of the night as often as I do. Not sure if it’s the sub or just the fact that ever since the cleanse my hormones doubled and now my body heat is noticeably higher at night.
Already started my next round of loops. I’m just curious how exactly the average person who’s never used a sub before would respond to the kind of turmoil Ive experienced ever since I started DMSI. And seeing things that make it seem like it’s working but then for them to go away without a trace of results coming in the future.
It’s whatever. I’ll just keep doing what I can for my personal progress.
