01-06-2019, 01:21 AM
This is the end of week 4. Day 1 of week 4 I was up most of the night with extreme arousal and fantasizing and major painful sensations in my head. I eventually just had to "relieve the pressure" so I could sleep. That was the only time I've even really had much of an urge to do this while on 3.3.
The next night I felt a little bit better, like there was maybe a tiny bit better energy flow. The rest of the week I have slept poorly and felt pretty bad, tired, and low motivation to do much of anything.
Energy wise, even before subs, I have felt a pressure and buildup of energy in my body. It's like it's all held in and I don't release energy that needs to be released. Whatever is causing me to hold or not be able to release this energy and have a proper energy flow is the big thing holding me back. I have had moments of getting this flow going on before subs. There have been even fewer and briefer moments with subs where it feels almost like I'm on the verge of getting a breakthrough and moving this energy but it never quite gets there. I am hopeful that I will get this breakthrough soon.
The next night I felt a little bit better, like there was maybe a tiny bit better energy flow. The rest of the week I have slept poorly and felt pretty bad, tired, and low motivation to do much of anything.
Energy wise, even before subs, I have felt a pressure and buildup of energy in my body. It's like it's all held in and I don't release energy that needs to be released. Whatever is causing me to hold or not be able to release this energy and have a proper energy flow is the big thing holding me back. I have had moments of getting this flow going on before subs. There have been even fewer and briefer moments with subs where it feels almost like I'm on the verge of getting a breakthrough and moving this energy but it never quite gets there. I am hopeful that I will get this breakthrough soon.
