12-31-2018, 09:14 AM
Monday december 31th
I had dreams about failing my studies. I had to drop out and failed other studies as well. I completely dropped out from university so that was a bit disturbing. I was lost in my dreams and felt sad.
I’m having depressive feelings for the past couple of months. Sometimes I can manage it, but other days i’m just lying around in my bed and neglecting important tasks.
So for new years evening i’m all alone, sitting in my room, just chilling a bit and trying to finish my school work and to study a bit.
Nothing fancy, no party, no crazy stuff. I listen from 5:30 PM till 11:00 PM
I went to the grocery store to buy some diet soda and bread and I felt ugly and sad. I avoided eye contact with everyone. There was a store clerk which greeted me. It felt weird.
Sofar i’m having really turbulant dreams and I keep waking up like 3 times per night. I sleep alot and I still wake up tired.
If this shit keeps continuing like this, I will be in problems and maybe I have to quit this program early.
I hope I can get through this FRM and I hope I start executing.
DMSI-3.3D 5.5G: day 4
Nofap: day 4
I had dreams about failing my studies. I had to drop out and failed other studies as well. I completely dropped out from university so that was a bit disturbing. I was lost in my dreams and felt sad.
I’m having depressive feelings for the past couple of months. Sometimes I can manage it, but other days i’m just lying around in my bed and neglecting important tasks.
So for new years evening i’m all alone, sitting in my room, just chilling a bit and trying to finish my school work and to study a bit.
Nothing fancy, no party, no crazy stuff. I listen from 5:30 PM till 11:00 PM
I went to the grocery store to buy some diet soda and bread and I felt ugly and sad. I avoided eye contact with everyone. There was a store clerk which greeted me. It felt weird.
Sofar i’m having really turbulant dreams and I keep waking up like 3 times per night. I sleep alot and I still wake up tired.
If this shit keeps continuing like this, I will be in problems and maybe I have to quit this program early.
I hope I can get through this FRM and I hope I start executing.
DMSI-3.3D 5.5G: day 4
Nofap: day 4
