12-12-2018, 04:02 AM
Well, I didn't plan on ending this journal so soon, but this will be my last report on DMSI 3.3 D for the reasons implied in previous posts.
Anyway, I noticed a few things, I'd like to mention.
1. Dogs' response. I think I saw two, maybe three dogs today. All of them were staring at me. If my memory serves me correctly, this was also observed in my run with previous DMSI versions.
2. More friendly response from older women. The place I currently work to fulfill the military conscription is sorta like a community center, but it is a government office. Think of it like a mini version of city hall, but also acts as a community center. There really isn't something like this in the US. Anyway, one of the task I am charged is to go up to a multipurpose room, close the windows, shut down the light, and close the door. The room is also a place in which cultural and social programs for community members are held. Most of the people who attend these programs are old people, and many of them old women. (Old as in mostly 50s.) This time, I went up and the ladies (this time it was all women's dance class.) were staying behind to practice for the end of the year performance. I waited a bit, they were done, they came out. They were more friendly than usual. For instance, people usually leave paper cups behind, and I usually pick them up. Previously, people would respond nothing even if they saw me doing the thing. This time, all the ladies who were there (and yes all of them were either in 50s or 60s) saying bad things to a person who left a cup behind, and they were like, oh we'll pick them up afterwards, even though it isn't our doing. One of them were like, well think of the ones who left behind the cup like your mom who left behind. (Okay, my mom's age would be close to or maybe older than them, but she always cleans up afterwards.) In other words, don't think too harshly of the people.
This was unusually friendly and warm response. I found their responses interesting.
3. More internal positivity. Okay, other than main tasks (I have a few more of those other than cleaning up that room.) I am also called to heavy lifting quite a lot. It's not that I am strong, but it is one thing social service corp members do. (Here's a gap. The nation, or the high level of military command and government didn't place us to do physical labor, or basically do what warehouse employees would do, delivering stuff, heavy stuff such as calcium chloride for road, rice, and etc.) The worst problem? I had developed inflammation on my rotator cuff muscles on both shoulders, developed inflammation on either ligaments or tendons on both my arms. (Well, there is no distinction between the two in the language of this country. Therefore, I am not sure which would be the case) And guess what? I get to still do that physical labor and heavy lifting on pretty much daily basis! Oh and because of this, I had to stop exercising, trying to get myself into shape. (Maybe I should get Maximum Healing speed sometime and run it..... But would that be a good idea, given that I will probably need to do more physical labor?) Besides, my strength is in brain, not in my physical body. Anyway, because of this issue, I had built up all the frustration, negativity, and such. I suppose anybody would given the situation that the person is forced to do heavy lifting even when he/she has injured his/her arms very severely. Today was not that different in the situation. (It was a bit easier today, but it was not the easiest day.) However, the negative thoughts and feelings were much less, and feeling good (definitely not about the situation, but feeling good in general) was definitely there.
It's been only 4 days (today would be the fifth days, if I would listen), but I think I already see some results. These maybe too nuanced to call it concrete result or proof that DMSI is working, but I think and feel that they show that the program's working, at least to a degree. (Full blast of DMSI would be amusing, but could be very troublesome in my situation. Therefore, nuanced results are not bad.)
Anyway, this would be my last report of DMSI 3.3 D. (At least till February 2020, but I suppose we may then get an upgrade or a totally new DMSI then?) In a month and a week or two, I shall come back with either LTU or USLM. So much time to wait for just listening to 4 days of a sub.
Anyway, I noticed a few things, I'd like to mention.
1. Dogs' response. I think I saw two, maybe three dogs today. All of them were staring at me. If my memory serves me correctly, this was also observed in my run with previous DMSI versions.
2. More friendly response from older women. The place I currently work to fulfill the military conscription is sorta like a community center, but it is a government office. Think of it like a mini version of city hall, but also acts as a community center. There really isn't something like this in the US. Anyway, one of the task I am charged is to go up to a multipurpose room, close the windows, shut down the light, and close the door. The room is also a place in which cultural and social programs for community members are held. Most of the people who attend these programs are old people, and many of them old women. (Old as in mostly 50s.) This time, I went up and the ladies (this time it was all women's dance class.) were staying behind to practice for the end of the year performance. I waited a bit, they were done, they came out. They were more friendly than usual. For instance, people usually leave paper cups behind, and I usually pick them up. Previously, people would respond nothing even if they saw me doing the thing. This time, all the ladies who were there (and yes all of them were either in 50s or 60s) saying bad things to a person who left a cup behind, and they were like, oh we'll pick them up afterwards, even though it isn't our doing. One of them were like, well think of the ones who left behind the cup like your mom who left behind. (Okay, my mom's age would be close to or maybe older than them, but she always cleans up afterwards.) In other words, don't think too harshly of the people.
This was unusually friendly and warm response. I found their responses interesting.
3. More internal positivity. Okay, other than main tasks (I have a few more of those other than cleaning up that room.) I am also called to heavy lifting quite a lot. It's not that I am strong, but it is one thing social service corp members do. (Here's a gap. The nation, or the high level of military command and government didn't place us to do physical labor, or basically do what warehouse employees would do, delivering stuff, heavy stuff such as calcium chloride for road, rice, and etc.) The worst problem? I had developed inflammation on my rotator cuff muscles on both shoulders, developed inflammation on either ligaments or tendons on both my arms. (Well, there is no distinction between the two in the language of this country. Therefore, I am not sure which would be the case) And guess what? I get to still do that physical labor and heavy lifting on pretty much daily basis! Oh and because of this, I had to stop exercising, trying to get myself into shape. (Maybe I should get Maximum Healing speed sometime and run it..... But would that be a good idea, given that I will probably need to do more physical labor?) Besides, my strength is in brain, not in my physical body. Anyway, because of this issue, I had built up all the frustration, negativity, and such. I suppose anybody would given the situation that the person is forced to do heavy lifting even when he/she has injured his/her arms very severely. Today was not that different in the situation. (It was a bit easier today, but it was not the easiest day.) However, the negative thoughts and feelings were much less, and feeling good (definitely not about the situation, but feeling good in general) was definitely there.
It's been only 4 days (today would be the fifth days, if I would listen), but I think I already see some results. These maybe too nuanced to call it concrete result or proof that DMSI is working, but I think and feel that they show that the program's working, at least to a degree. (Full blast of DMSI would be amusing, but could be very troublesome in my situation. Therefore, nuanced results are not bad.)
Anyway, this would be my last report of DMSI 3.3 D. (At least till February 2020, but I suppose we may then get an upgrade or a totally new DMSI then?) In a month and a week or two, I shall come back with either LTU or USLM. So much time to wait for just listening to 4 days of a sub.
