11-27-2018, 05:15 PM
update 4:
Time: 3.12am
So I ate, and spoke messaged my friend about the gym tomorrow. Its feeling more real, and this got me motivated to finish off the remainder of my unpacking which I now realise I was procrastinating on.
I have done it all and also ate first which I forgot to mention.
All I have to do tomorrow is wake up, shower, figure out what I want to wear at the gym and what I want to do and then go meet up with him, provided he is still going which he said he will be.
I realised also that as usual I am more motivated at night than in the day which has been the case since my last update.
Overall no change, no dreams or change in behaviour, no change in feelings, no change it seems in thoughts, no fears that I can notice being dealt with and overall my lack of motivation Vs my motivation seems to be consistent for now.
Time: 3.12am
So I ate, and spoke messaged my friend about the gym tomorrow. Its feeling more real, and this got me motivated to finish off the remainder of my unpacking which I now realise I was procrastinating on.
I have done it all and also ate first which I forgot to mention.
All I have to do tomorrow is wake up, shower, figure out what I want to wear at the gym and what I want to do and then go meet up with him, provided he is still going which he said he will be.
I realised also that as usual I am more motivated at night than in the day which has been the case since my last update.
Overall no change, no dreams or change in behaviour, no change in feelings, no change it seems in thoughts, no fears that I can notice being dealt with and overall my lack of motivation Vs my motivation seems to be consistent for now.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
