Radical Journey

[Rad]

Hi Rad and welcome! (although it doesn't sound like you're entirely new here )

Well like I said, I've been around since about September, reading some of these forum threads before buying the subs I did buy. When I came back last week I spent a day reading the forums again before signing up and starting up this journal. What can I say, I'm a creeper.

Day 9

So today can eat fecal matter and die. It started off all-right but then someone must have thrown a switch or something because I've become bloody irritable. Nothing of too much note has happened today besides that so I'll leave it at that.

Something else to note though is that since using the sub I've managed to get my hands on some data that was proving elusive. I got lucky with my connections and timing.

I wrote some more last night on the project I started. I got Chapter 1 from 42% complete to 60% complete. I'll take my victories where I can thank you very much.

One of my best friends is up on Johannesburg (I'm down in Cape Town) and he just recently had a baby girl. I so badly want to go up for a visit and meet the baby (also the girlfriend since we haven't met yet either). He and I chatted and texted a few times since his new life began, but it's been months since our last contact. He's busy with his life, I understand. But everyone is busy with their lives and I'm just here, nothing more than a digital ghost.

Yeah, I don't really have anything to save this post from ending on a downer. I'm on a negative spiral. It happens. I should bloody well release on my goals. That would be enormously beneficial. I know it would make me feel better, and here I am not doing it. Limiting belief I don't deserve to feel good maybe?

Probably.