Radical Journey

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Day 8 (I think)

I actually have quite a bit to say in response to what Andrew said, re luck. But I'm feeling a bit drained at the moment so I don't know when I'll get to it.

The weekend was rough. I got into a thing with my mother on Friday and it has been nothing short of psychic warfare since. Of course I realised then that there has been a constant psychic war between myself and my parents, and Friday merely caused a spike in hostilities. I did a lot of releasing on it but it didn't really feel like I was making any headway. I'm really tired of it and want it to end.



I don't know if it was on Thursday night or Friday night when I switched over to playing the sub while I slept.

I think it was on Saturday when I watched a film called Weekend. It was like being struck by lightning, with that moment stretched out over two hours. The first time I ever had that feeling was when I watched American Beauty for the first time. Afterwards I had a hollow feeling in my chest and a sadness upon me.

I started writing again yesterday. I just had an idea for a story, let it mull about in my head for a few hours then knocked out half a chapter before going to bed. I decided not to get stuck in the minutia of plotting everything out 7 books in advance and just deal with the story one paragraph at a time. It’s slow going and I feel like there is simultaneously not enough detail and to much detail. But at least I have a word count above 1k.

At 2:30am I got an sms to tell me I won R500,000.00 in some nokia prize thing. This is the third time I have received some variant of this sms. Scammers need to leave me the eff alone and not disturb my sleep. I was rolling around in bed for 2 hours before falling asleep so to be woken up for bs sorely pissed me off.

I need to get a new phone. Not because I had a rage fit at 2am and threw my phone across the room (I didn't do that). But because my phone is about 2 years old and is designed to breakdown at that point. Planned obsolescence or some such. Consumerism, amirite? Anyway, I could get a Xperia Ray or an iPhone 4S. The Ray contract is more affordable and since it's an Android platform I can get the Sedona Method app on it. But damnit I want an iPhone. Contract costs about twice as much but I can afford it in a pinch I guess. Plus on top of the Sedona app I can get Infinity Blade and so many others. I'll see what the finances look like after this weekend maybe happening birthday lunch/dinner a friend is having.



Most of the luck/joy/pivoting from Thursday hasn't shown up since. Then again, I haven't released on the goals since then either. My own damn fault then.

Anyway, I'll address the other things happening in this thread and in others when I get the chance and inclination.