10-24-2018, 11:01 PM
Day 107
Sore throat, headache, fever like symptoms. I was planning to update the journal and then climate change affected me.
Mentally feel very tired. I have reduced the time for the sub and cover 8- 9 hours only. One reason could be I experimented with a radionics software for a different thing. That might have contributed to brain load. I have stopped that now. I ran E1 for about 6 month and now I am on 4th month of E2. It kind of gets boring when you see things around you which are interesting and appealing and you want to try but cannot due to the sub.
Overall my perception of the world has changed a lot. I am facing things like my age, my household responsibility directly in the face. From sitting on the sideline and watching I am more in the stream right now. I think more maturity and practically. There was this one thing which was stopping me from moving in the stream, I cannot define what it was but I always felt it like a chain or something, holding me in one place. I do not feel this anymore.
I was irritated very easily especially while driving if someone cuts me or behaves badly. I used to react a lot. Not in the kind of road rage but internal anger and frustration. Now this is more directed outside than inside. I honk or engage slightly in a road rage but with mental control without endangering myself or other drivers. i think that instead of holding inside I can direct it outwards or just let it slip away. Its like if I find this driver again I will not let him cross me again but if not I let him go and release the anger.
Sore throat, headache, fever like symptoms. I was planning to update the journal and then climate change affected me.
Mentally feel very tired. I have reduced the time for the sub and cover 8- 9 hours only. One reason could be I experimented with a radionics software for a different thing. That might have contributed to brain load. I have stopped that now. I ran E1 for about 6 month and now I am on 4th month of E2. It kind of gets boring when you see things around you which are interesting and appealing and you want to try but cannot due to the sub.
Overall my perception of the world has changed a lot. I am facing things like my age, my household responsibility directly in the face. From sitting on the sideline and watching I am more in the stream right now. I think more maturity and practically. There was this one thing which was stopping me from moving in the stream, I cannot define what it was but I always felt it like a chain or something, holding me in one place. I do not feel this anymore.
I was irritated very easily especially while driving if someone cuts me or behaves badly. I used to react a lot. Not in the kind of road rage but internal anger and frustration. Now this is more directed outside than inside. I honk or engage slightly in a road rage but with mental control without endangering myself or other drivers. i think that instead of holding inside I can direct it outwards or just let it slip away. Its like if I find this driver again I will not let him cross me again but if not I let him go and release the anger.
E1 182 days: E2 127 days: USLM3 317 days: UMS 210 days...
