09-21-2018, 10:17 AM
Day 73
Before I start with the dream I saw, let me first tell some previous dreams on the same theme:
I have seen a dream in which I want to pee badly and everywhere I go the toilets are open. Everywhere when I find a toilet, I find that it is open from all sides. If I use it it will be in open view. I am frantically running and searching in every place but I do not find any privacy in any place. From a distance the toilets seem close / surrounded by sides by walls, but when I enter the toilet i can see it is open from all sides. I have seen this dream many times with same problem. In every dream I seem to be in a different place. In all my dreams I was alone; meaning everyone else was a stranger and I did not know anybody in the environment.
Last night I had a dream. I am with my family in a foreign place in an unknown environment. I am going around trying to find some place to pee. I climb stairs in a building and find a basic muddy dusty (brown) kind of room and a toilet but it is open from sides. It more like few bricks in a place to make a toilet in the ground. I just stand and stand urinating. The urine was crystal clear and kept flowing for a long time as if someone had opened a tap and the flow was so big like water coming from a tap and not a human being. There is a guy standing behind me looking at me. There are some people far away looking and some start making video from their mobile phone. Somebody exclaimed look how much urine is coming. I did not understand if I have climbed up and cannot see my family which I think were sitting at a table, how these people can see me. In the meanwhile I realized I have some feces stuck / present on my back. I sit down and clean myself with water and then again stood up. All the time this water stream is coming out of me and i do not know where it is going.
I have tried to understand the meaning of the above dreams. One meaning could be that I am releasing my feelings / stuck up emotions in front of people. Another meaning could be I am about to embarrass myself in front of people.
One change I brought in my listening pattern is that I have now started listening to the sub during night time when I go to sleep. I was thinking that during day time there are noises and distractions and I could be disrupting my sub time.
Before I start with the dream I saw, let me first tell some previous dreams on the same theme:
I have seen a dream in which I want to pee badly and everywhere I go the toilets are open. Everywhere when I find a toilet, I find that it is open from all sides. If I use it it will be in open view. I am frantically running and searching in every place but I do not find any privacy in any place. From a distance the toilets seem close / surrounded by sides by walls, but when I enter the toilet i can see it is open from all sides. I have seen this dream many times with same problem. In every dream I seem to be in a different place. In all my dreams I was alone; meaning everyone else was a stranger and I did not know anybody in the environment.
Last night I had a dream. I am with my family in a foreign place in an unknown environment. I am going around trying to find some place to pee. I climb stairs in a building and find a basic muddy dusty (brown) kind of room and a toilet but it is open from sides. It more like few bricks in a place to make a toilet in the ground. I just stand and stand urinating. The urine was crystal clear and kept flowing for a long time as if someone had opened a tap and the flow was so big like water coming from a tap and not a human being. There is a guy standing behind me looking at me. There are some people far away looking and some start making video from their mobile phone. Somebody exclaimed look how much urine is coming. I did not understand if I have climbed up and cannot see my family which I think were sitting at a table, how these people can see me. In the meanwhile I realized I have some feces stuck / present on my back. I sit down and clean myself with water and then again stood up. All the time this water stream is coming out of me and i do not know where it is going.
I have tried to understand the meaning of the above dreams. One meaning could be that I am releasing my feelings / stuck up emotions in front of people. Another meaning could be I am about to embarrass myself in front of people.
One change I brought in my listening pattern is that I have now started listening to the sub during night time when I go to sleep. I was thinking that during day time there are noises and distractions and I could be disrupting my sub time.
E1 182 days: E2 127 days: USLM3 317 days: UMS 210 days...
