09-16-2018, 12:39 PM
Week 12
Not a good week. Alot of insecurity, anxiety, negativity, hopelessness and suicidal thoughts. I couldn't do anything and distracted myself. Then talked it out with my sister and did that for a day and a half. I had alot to let out. I never told my sister anything before. I just had this feeling to do so. After wards I still dealt with the mental thoughts but kept fighting them and eventually won. I don't need to listen to such worthless thoughts and don't need them. Now I am fine but it was definitely a scare for some days. Thoughts of stopping subs all together but I don't know. I don't like repeating what just happened and it seems it happens with every sub I do. I was honestly thinking about doing the Depression 5.5g sub or Anxiety Relief 5.5g.
Not a good week. Alot of insecurity, anxiety, negativity, hopelessness and suicidal thoughts. I couldn't do anything and distracted myself. Then talked it out with my sister and did that for a day and a half. I had alot to let out. I never told my sister anything before. I just had this feeling to do so. After wards I still dealt with the mental thoughts but kept fighting them and eventually won. I don't need to listen to such worthless thoughts and don't need them. Now I am fine but it was definitely a scare for some days. Thoughts of stopping subs all together but I don't know. I don't like repeating what just happened and it seems it happens with every sub I do. I was honestly thinking about doing the Depression 5.5g sub or Anxiety Relief 5.5g.
