09-03-2018, 10:37 PM
Day 56
I decide to face my fears. How do i do that? No idea at first.
Then I started of thinking about it. The moment I hesitated doing something or any hesitation came into my mind, I started thinking why am I fearful, why am I hesitating about it. What is holding me back? I found that I was able to do what I thought / decided not to do.
I have also started thinking about success / wealth / income. What is holding me back? I am thinking in terms of particular item eg. what is holding me back from getting promotion in my job? I am thinking in terms of my feeling at that time.
I have dreamt in the past 2 days. Overall positive. One night I saw an apple tree in blossom with one sole apple on it. Last night, I dreamt I was in a camp or a group. I did not feel comfortable and moved my sleeping place to a solitary place instead of sleeping with a group. Then I dreamt that I was in a building very basic structure / sort of like an old prison. I was eating food and a lion was sitting at the centre and everyone was treating him like a leader / king. I got some food in my plate some curry on top of a bread and suddenly got scared of the lion and dropped it on the floor. Then I picked up some more bread (no curry) in my hand.
I decide to face my fears. How do i do that? No idea at first.
Then I started of thinking about it. The moment I hesitated doing something or any hesitation came into my mind, I started thinking why am I fearful, why am I hesitating about it. What is holding me back? I found that I was able to do what I thought / decided not to do.
I have also started thinking about success / wealth / income. What is holding me back? I am thinking in terms of particular item eg. what is holding me back from getting promotion in my job? I am thinking in terms of my feeling at that time.
I have dreamt in the past 2 days. Overall positive. One night I saw an apple tree in blossom with one sole apple on it. Last night, I dreamt I was in a camp or a group. I did not feel comfortable and moved my sleeping place to a solitary place instead of sleeping with a group. Then I dreamt that I was in a building very basic structure / sort of like an old prison. I was eating food and a lion was sitting at the centre and everyone was treating him like a leader / king. I got some food in my plate some curry on top of a bread and suddenly got scared of the lion and dropped it on the floor. Then I picked up some more bread (no curry) in my hand.
E1 182 days: E2 127 days: USLM3 317 days: UMS 210 days...
