08-13-2018, 02:25 AM
Day 34
I have now started to feel some good effects meaning some dampening effects. I am feeling free and relaxed. The small things are less affecting me. My wife says that for the last 1-2 months I am not taking things personally. I just finished one month of E2, so she might be mistaken in the time.
I was in the playground with my family. I took a swing and it felt like a new thing. As it got fast, I got afraid and slowed down. My wife dared me to jump instead of stopping but I could not. For one moment I calculated the jump, landing, speed etc... and thought I can do it but in the end I decided not to jump. I also felt something, some hard thing in my forehead, kinda of headache but no pain, just heavy feeling.
Same thing happened when I took a slide. I was scared and slowed down with my feet. The second time I was a bit more relaxed but still did not went full speed. On the slide it also felt like I was taking a slide first time.
My relationship with parents is rocky. I stopped talking due to some opinion of my mother which I did not like. Instead of confronting her or expressing my feelings, I just choose to become quiet and stopped talking to her.
I have now started to feel some good effects meaning some dampening effects. I am feeling free and relaxed. The small things are less affecting me. My wife says that for the last 1-2 months I am not taking things personally. I just finished one month of E2, so she might be mistaken in the time.
I was in the playground with my family. I took a swing and it felt like a new thing. As it got fast, I got afraid and slowed down. My wife dared me to jump instead of stopping but I could not. For one moment I calculated the jump, landing, speed etc... and thought I can do it but in the end I decided not to jump. I also felt something, some hard thing in my forehead, kinda of headache but no pain, just heavy feeling.
Same thing happened when I took a slide. I was scared and slowed down with my feet. The second time I was a bit more relaxed but still did not went full speed. On the slide it also felt like I was taking a slide first time.
My relationship with parents is rocky. I stopped talking due to some opinion of my mother which I did not like. Instead of confronting her or expressing my feelings, I just choose to become quiet and stopped talking to her.
E1 182 days: E2 127 days: USLM3 317 days: UMS 210 days...
