I'll share my experience. I'm a quieter fellow myself, and in years past I often would not speak my truth since I greatly feared a confrontation.
The hardest thing I've had to face using IML subs is........growing up. And I'm in my 40's. I put myself in harm's way loads of times silently expecting someone to speak up for me, or even rescue me. I feel shame when even writing about it since I thought "I'm not worth standing up for myself". Since noone else consistently stood up for me, I didn't either. I lived like this my whole life.
When I began E2, I grew up some. Mind you, I fought it originally, and I was on and off the sub. I had no idea how to survive being a grown up or thinking like one. I was even discouraged in myself until I began Universal Detox (UD), which gently and regularly scraped the lies away. I cried a bit on UD since I had lived by lying to myself about EVERYTHING. This was modeled to me by an alcoholic mother. And UD showed me I could only change ME. I chose to change, and I still am changing.
I greatly miss the results I achieved while on UD, and I've restarted it a few times. Tears come soon since lying.....was easier. Facing truth still scares the s*** out of me sometimes.
Thanks for writing about this here. You mentioned AM6, and I looked at that originally. However, Shannon recommended I do DMSI first since its tech is much more capable of flushing head trash.
Because....I am an adult. I'd just "believed" otherwise. I am still learning to speak up for myself, but it's not nearly as hard anymore :-)
The hardest thing I've had to face using IML subs is........growing up. And I'm in my 40's. I put myself in harm's way loads of times silently expecting someone to speak up for me, or even rescue me. I feel shame when even writing about it since I thought "I'm not worth standing up for myself". Since noone else consistently stood up for me, I didn't either. I lived like this my whole life.
When I began E2, I grew up some. Mind you, I fought it originally, and I was on and off the sub. I had no idea how to survive being a grown up or thinking like one. I was even discouraged in myself until I began Universal Detox (UD), which gently and regularly scraped the lies away. I cried a bit on UD since I had lived by lying to myself about EVERYTHING. This was modeled to me by an alcoholic mother. And UD showed me I could only change ME. I chose to change, and I still am changing.
I greatly miss the results I achieved while on UD, and I've restarted it a few times. Tears come soon since lying.....was easier. Facing truth still scares the s*** out of me sometimes.
Thanks for writing about this here. You mentioned AM6, and I looked at that originally. However, Shannon recommended I do DMSI first since its tech is much more capable of flushing head trash.
Because....I am an adult. I'd just "believed" otherwise. I am still learning to speak up for myself, but it's not nearly as hard anymore :-)
I want to be FREE!
