If you got suicidal from AM, don't start it again. Whatever people say, what can be worth risking your life? There is other paths to well being. You don't have to be an alpha male to feel good or to socialize.
Look into trauma releasing exercises. They have helped me a lot. Get better buddy.
Edit.: I saw that you are feeling better, good for you and congrats! However my previous advise still stands, suicide attempts should be taken seriously.
Look into trauma releasing exercises. They have helped me a lot. Get better buddy.
Edit.: I saw that you are feeling better, good for you and congrats! However my previous advise still stands, suicide attempts should be taken seriously.