Hey guys 
I haven't posted in a while because I haven't had any internet for over three weeks, but its finally back working again.
Been doing DMSI every night with a night off after every seven days. I did mess up the ASRB a couple of weeks back with interrupted listenings and by listening over the seven day period without taking a break but now im back on track and adhering to the ASRB.
Not much to report on the female side except I am noticing that female store clerks are unusually friendly and helpful towards me. In fact I was in a pharmacy yesterday and I was looking for a particular product and almost every female that was working in the store were assisting me and being super friendly and helpful which was kind of funny
Im still having alot of random bouts of insecurity and im not really sure where I am going in life. Im in this cycle of apathy which has sabotaged me countless times in the past and I need to break out of it but sometimes I just feel so powerless and afraid to make the changes in my life and I tend to doubt my self alot despite trying to use positive self talk. It's like some ingrained subconscious patterns which I have been following for most my life.
One thing that I have noticed is that if I masturbate I lose most if not all my sexual energy and become alot more insecure and feel less 'sexy' around women. It's really a bad habit and I find it hard to go several days without masturbating. I tend to have a stimulating interaction, then I fantasize and then give in and masturbate hence destroying my progress.
Had a dream last night where I was being rejected by random women, it wasn't a very positive dream and somehow it made me feel a bit insecure during the day. Is this a sign that I am resisting the goals of the program?
If anyone has any suggestions and good advice for me I would be very willing to hear it
I haven't posted in a while because I haven't had any internet for over three weeks, but its finally back working again.
Been doing DMSI every night with a night off after every seven days. I did mess up the ASRB a couple of weeks back with interrupted listenings and by listening over the seven day period without taking a break but now im back on track and adhering to the ASRB.
Not much to report on the female side except I am noticing that female store clerks are unusually friendly and helpful towards me. In fact I was in a pharmacy yesterday and I was looking for a particular product and almost every female that was working in the store were assisting me and being super friendly and helpful which was kind of funny
Im still having alot of random bouts of insecurity and im not really sure where I am going in life. Im in this cycle of apathy which has sabotaged me countless times in the past and I need to break out of it but sometimes I just feel so powerless and afraid to make the changes in my life and I tend to doubt my self alot despite trying to use positive self talk. It's like some ingrained subconscious patterns which I have been following for most my life.
One thing that I have noticed is that if I masturbate I lose most if not all my sexual energy and become alot more insecure and feel less 'sexy' around women. It's really a bad habit and I find it hard to go several days without masturbating. I tend to have a stimulating interaction, then I fantasize and then give in and masturbate hence destroying my progress.
Had a dream last night where I was being rejected by random women, it wasn't a very positive dream and somehow it made me feel a bit insecure during the day. Is this a sign that I am resisting the goals of the program?
If anyone has any suggestions and good advice for me I would be very willing to hear it
