Tiesto's Absolute Self Confidence 4G Progress Report

[Tiesto]

The depression is a common response to resistance that is slowly but surely being overcome. The other day I started testing an experimental subliminal build method that I think may be able to quickly overcome resistance, and I built a program that I knew would cause me to resist it. The first day after listening, when I was confronted with having to do what the subliminal was trying to get me to do, I fell into a serious depression... not emotional pain, but hopelessness based, and it killed all my motivation to work.

I had a dream that night that explained to me consciously why my subconscious was upset... which I acknowledged, and then I continued using the new subliminal. Since then, I have not been nearly as depressed, although it is slightly easier to feel depressed about certain other unrelated things I have been waiting almost 2 years to see change in (my love life, mainly, which I know is not going to change until late in 2012 at the earliest, and this inability to change this or do anything about it but wait is what's got me feeling hopeless).

I also have had zero motivation to work since starting this program, which I know is also a resistance response for me. I have to consciously drag myself into doing anything at all...

Wow! I feel the same way, my depression is also like that, I feel like I don’t want to work anymore, in my mind I’m sick of my work, and I just wish I could come up with some ideas to start a new and more interesting business that I can enjoy more, or just a get a job with steady monthly salary which I think would be less stressful than running a business, where during bad times I can practically have no income for a while, and it can get pretty depressing.

1. The subliminal is not only having an effect, but your subconscious is slowly losing ground in resisting, and it knows that eventually it will be overwhelmed by the program - which I believe is why you feel depressed: your subconscious is being forced to face something it fears, and realizes that unless the exposure stops, resistance is ultimately hopeless, and so it feels hopeless. That is, at least, my best interpretation of the situation.

This makes sense, and I’m glad to hear this!

2. The anxiety causing you to want to smoke suggests that your resistance is based in fear of loss of self control. Which suggests that you are not the blindly stubborn type, but someone who has suffered a frightening situation in the past which was caused by - or seen by you as being caused by - a loss of control, or control of yourself. This is actually good, because the blind resistance type is almost impossible to deal with except VERY slowly and subtlely, or through some other form of approach.

If this response is being caused by a subliminal to increase your self confidence, that in itself suggests that if you did experience a loss of self control which is the reason for the resistance, you subconsciously perceive self confidence as either directly or indirectly leading to another such situation or perceived threat. Very interesting. Perhaps you should try a different subliminal, and see if you still have the resistance?

I’m glad I’m not the Blind Stubborn type!

Since you mentioned about hypnotherapist earlier on, that got me thinking, I have this belief that hypnosis is pretty much bullcrap, and I just find it hard to believe when I see people get hypnotized and start to do strange and funny things like jumping and dancing around all over the place, I think they are just faking it, but then again I have never been hypnotized before in my life, so I don’t know what it feels like, this might create a belief or I might say a ‘determination’ that I would never allow myself to be hypnotized or I would never allow myself to fall into anyone’s hypnosis to do weird things, because I think it is just stupid and embarrassing.

Even though I refused to believe that hypnosis is real, but at the same time I’m scared to actually test it out, and I fear that if my ‘determination’ to resist the hypnosis failed and I start to do stupid thing and embarrassed myself, I would lose confidence in myself and my ability.

I have also read and hear stories about thief and robber that uses hypnosis, where people getting hypnotized, and willingly to start handing over their valuable personal items, the fear of this kind of event could happened to me makes me even more determined that my willpower should never allow anyone to put me under their influence, combined with my trait of not liking being told what to do, this starting to clear things up that I may have developed this special defense system I created to protect my mind out of fear of losing control to evil people that could potentially manipulate and influence me to do things that I would not want to do.

Wow! After I think about it, it really makes a lot of sense to me. Shannon, I don’t know how you come up with that diagnosis, what you said is pretty spot on! Amazing!

The way you diagnose my case reminds me of Dr. House on that TV series, BUT without the annoying attitude of course. Lol!

Well I’m really determined to break through the defenses of my stubborn subconscious mind, the idea of changing to other sub is also interesting indeed, I have bought BASE and US, so I could change to that, but at the same time since you mentioned that the resistance is slowly falling apart and getting desperate by making me depressed, I think I should continue with ASC until the subliminal won the battle.

I have decided to extend the period from 32 days to 60 days (until the end of March), maybe increase the volume a little bit more, and also increase the daily exposure time from 8 to 12 hours.

If after 2 weeks (until 10th of March) I’m still resisting, then I will increase the amount of exposure even further as you recommended up to 16 hours per day (which I hope won’t be necessary) until the 31st of March.

If by end of March still no result, then I will definitely switch to BASE + US and we’ll see what will happen with those two.