06-16-2010, 08:53 AM
(This post was last modified: 06-16-2010, 09:08 AM by WildFlower.)
Saturday night I was watched the England vs the USA game. I don't like football much, and I'm not at all patriotic, so to see the mistake the keeper made at least made an otherwise unenjoyable 90 minutes pretty funny. During the hour and a half the game was on I had 14 missed calls FOURTEEN, within the space of 90 minutes. It was a female friend of mine who hadn't seen me in a month or two and she wanted to meet up. An hour after the game and 4 phone calls later I said I'd meet up with her in a bit when I get near town.
When I finally met up with her, there was a lot of kino and within 20 minutes she was kissing me more passionately than I have ever been kissed before followed by the repeated line "I really like you". Another 20 minutes later and I get the line "your house or mine", I told her hers and we went back to hers. We head straight to the bedroom, and again lots of the craziest kissing ever. I wasn't being pushy at all, hadn't pursued any of what was happening, and wasn't physically escalating then I was hit with the line "let's not go any further, I don't want to ruin what we have between us", she rolled over and wanted me to cuddle her.
True anti slut defence. She had initiated contact with a ridiculous amount of phone calls, initiated the sexual frame, started kino, lingered around my face for a kiss, decided to take me back to her house, but she didn't want to have sex and framed it as if I was the one pursuing her after she had made every step. When really she didn't want to have sex with me because, I haven't chased her or made her feel qualified. She wants to hold out to sort of bribe me into a relationship which she currently feels I don't want. And she's right, I don't want it.
Having girls become so overly interested in me as a man, a boyfriend, a keeper, is still relatively new territory for me, and over the five months this change has happened, I haven't yet found a way to deal with it in a way to avoid hurting anyone's feelings. I didn't chase her, because while I find her attractive, I don't want to use her or anyone else just for sex when I don't find then appealing in a relationship way. And prior to Saturday night I didn't know she was that into me anyway - I'll definitely have to try and cool her down a bit now.
I can attract (in a different way) like any bad boy, Casanova or player can, but I'm not heartless enough to hurt anyone out of selfishness. When one receives power, I suppose it's only natural that there is always going to be a few teething problems as they come to terms with it. The Alpha sub has made me able to chase if I want to; I can approach pretty much anyone I want to now. The reason I was so laid-back and let her make all the moves was because I wanted it to be on her terms, but her terms (a relationship) were not something I could offer her. Anything not on her terms would have been unfair on her and hurt her. If her terms where 'just sex', I would've had sex with her, but I couldn't have sex with her knowing that she was expecting a long term commitment. I waited till she fell to sleep then left and sent her a text saying I felt uncomfortable. Not something I'm proud of at all, but like I said this power is something I'm still coming to terms with. Like they say you have to break a few eggs to make an omelet, step on a few toes on the way up the ladder, etc.
I've decided I want a relationship now, and I want it with Mrs. Right. I'm confident I'll find her soon, not that I'm looking.
When I finally met up with her, there was a lot of kino and within 20 minutes she was kissing me more passionately than I have ever been kissed before followed by the repeated line "I really like you". Another 20 minutes later and I get the line "your house or mine", I told her hers and we went back to hers. We head straight to the bedroom, and again lots of the craziest kissing ever. I wasn't being pushy at all, hadn't pursued any of what was happening, and wasn't physically escalating then I was hit with the line "let's not go any further, I don't want to ruin what we have between us", she rolled over and wanted me to cuddle her.
True anti slut defence. She had initiated contact with a ridiculous amount of phone calls, initiated the sexual frame, started kino, lingered around my face for a kiss, decided to take me back to her house, but she didn't want to have sex and framed it as if I was the one pursuing her after she had made every step. When really she didn't want to have sex with me because, I haven't chased her or made her feel qualified. She wants to hold out to sort of bribe me into a relationship which she currently feels I don't want. And she's right, I don't want it.
Having girls become so overly interested in me as a man, a boyfriend, a keeper, is still relatively new territory for me, and over the five months this change has happened, I haven't yet found a way to deal with it in a way to avoid hurting anyone's feelings. I didn't chase her, because while I find her attractive, I don't want to use her or anyone else just for sex when I don't find then appealing in a relationship way. And prior to Saturday night I didn't know she was that into me anyway - I'll definitely have to try and cool her down a bit now.
I can attract (in a different way) like any bad boy, Casanova or player can, but I'm not heartless enough to hurt anyone out of selfishness. When one receives power, I suppose it's only natural that there is always going to be a few teething problems as they come to terms with it. The Alpha sub has made me able to chase if I want to; I can approach pretty much anyone I want to now. The reason I was so laid-back and let her make all the moves was because I wanted it to be on her terms, but her terms (a relationship) were not something I could offer her. Anything not on her terms would have been unfair on her and hurt her. If her terms where 'just sex', I would've had sex with her, but I couldn't have sex with her knowing that she was expecting a long term commitment. I waited till she fell to sleep then left and sent her a text saying I felt uncomfortable. Not something I'm proud of at all, but like I said this power is something I'm still coming to terms with. Like they say you have to break a few eggs to make an omelet, step on a few toes on the way up the ladder, etc.
I've decided I want a relationship now, and I want it with Mrs. Right. I'm confident I'll find her soon, not that I'm looking.
“To be normal is the ideal aim of the unsuccessful.” - Carl Jung
