10-30-2017, 01:42 PM
Ok, like said in my last post few days after the post I had to stop for reasons I cannot go into detail here. However, after that time I listened to this sub again for about two weeks. What I can tell is, in my break I had a lot of attraction from women. Not the over-the-board ones, it felt more like natural attraction. It looks like the sub also killed a lot of neediness. Before, when I saw a good looking woman I really NEEDED to look at her, check out her tits or ass or the body in general. Now it is more like I take a look sometimes but it doesn't feel like I need to. I wouldn't even say it is disinterest, it is also not the kind of IDGAF where you just don't give a fuck to show her that you don't need her (which felt somehow artifical), it is more like I focus on myself and therefore don't give them much of attention. Interesting enough, it looks like it turns them on. So it may sound for some people like a step back from women but for me it feels like a step forward for some reason.
Saying this I don't think that the attraction itself is created by UD. I think it is DMSI shining (maybe also AM/SM to some degree, don't know). I mean I have pretty much a year of DMSI on my belt (even if you consider the two breaks I took and the few days here and there where I switched into something different out of resistance). So it is more likely the UD removed some of the things that prevented the long term programming from DMSI to shine.
Other thing I noticed is that my attitude to women changed. It is like UD removed the toxic believes I got after discovering the red pill stuff. I mean it is important to be aware of how women are but it doesn't help to hate them all or something. Before, I felt that I don't even need to care for creating something long term because she would jump into bed with the next asshole she finds anyway. Now I feel more like there could be someone I come along with for a long time. Not saying here that problems doesn't exists or can't happen, it is more like it could be worth anyway.
I also notice physical effects of UD. I need less sleep and feel more rested. And my sleep schedule is better. I also found (by accident or not) some stuff which can help me to tweak my eating habits for better. And there is also less coughing than before. I am planing to continue the sub when I am back and can listen to subs again.
Saying this I don't think that the attraction itself is created by UD. I think it is DMSI shining (maybe also AM/SM to some degree, don't know). I mean I have pretty much a year of DMSI on my belt (even if you consider the two breaks I took and the few days here and there where I switched into something different out of resistance). So it is more likely the UD removed some of the things that prevented the long term programming from DMSI to shine.
Other thing I noticed is that my attitude to women changed. It is like UD removed the toxic believes I got after discovering the red pill stuff. I mean it is important to be aware of how women are but it doesn't help to hate them all or something. Before, I felt that I don't even need to care for creating something long term because she would jump into bed with the next asshole she finds anyway. Now I feel more like there could be someone I come along with for a long time. Not saying here that problems doesn't exists or can't happen, it is more like it could be worth anyway.
I also notice physical effects of UD. I need less sleep and feel more rested. And my sleep schedule is better. I also found (by accident or not) some stuff which can help me to tweak my eating habits for better. And there is also less coughing than before. I am planing to continue the sub when I am back and can listen to subs again.
In theory, theory and practice are the same. In practice, they are not.
