I texted my ex on snapchat for some reason and she texts back saying she has a flu. Then she says that she have met with a new guy! I try to play it cool but inside i feel crushed. I tell her that im happy for her and she says thanks and that the new guy is very nice to her. I then just lose it and block her and her sister on Snapchat and Instagram. 3 hours later after agonizing emotional pain i text newspaper text to her phone number which i did not delete/block! Its 3 am in the mourning and im texting her all sorts of shit that i hurt her, she got her payback! That i love her, and that i dont want to see her again. Lastly im just making fun of the fact that i need stop texting her at 3 am because im butthurt.
A part of me believes that this is all just a big game and that we are inseperable. That she just want to hurt me and make me jealous.
I haz zero control. My emotions were all over the place! To say i was beta and weak is an understatment especially when i have been avoiding her for the last 4 days. Why im i like this? Im meeting with a much hotter girl at the moment! Better yet An old female friend just texted me about a pic of us from halloween 2016 and a while later she says that she is renovating her apartment and im welcome if im ever in Gothenburg!
Most definitly a DMSI manifestation! This one is also a 9/10 banging alpha female who share a great chemistry with me. Yet i just cant let go. The reason is that i always thought that no matter what happens i could always get her back with DMSI! That she is the only exception to the rule! That she is special and what we have is perfect! Its not.
Chaosvergn was right when he warned me about INFJs the first time i broke up with her. That she knows Intuitivly how to push my buttons and that she is taking advantage to the full. That she is deadly on an emotional level. Stupid me didnt listen.
Strangly i feel good after repeatedly texting her like a loser at 3am while she sleeps! Like i could truly move on. And i couldn't have done that had i not said everything i had to say.
I have never felt so crushed, so out of control, so humiliated in my life. Shannon hurry up with V3.2 and please beef up reality bending and the healing/clearing modules so nobody ever goes through this again. I believe the resistance im going through is also why im so sensitive. I wasn't even that happy when i was with her it just that now its over she just seems 100x better. An illusion i cant shake off.
Right now i have zero energy and zero willpower! I dont how im still standing with all the sh1t that have been going on. Must be a habit huh? I just cant quit.
A part of me believes that this is all just a big game and that we are inseperable. That she just want to hurt me and make me jealous.
I haz zero control. My emotions were all over the place! To say i was beta and weak is an understatment especially when i have been avoiding her for the last 4 days. Why im i like this? Im meeting with a much hotter girl at the moment! Better yet An old female friend just texted me about a pic of us from halloween 2016 and a while later she says that she is renovating her apartment and im welcome if im ever in Gothenburg!
Most definitly a DMSI manifestation! This one is also a 9/10 banging alpha female who share a great chemistry with me. Yet i just cant let go. The reason is that i always thought that no matter what happens i could always get her back with DMSI! That she is the only exception to the rule! That she is special and what we have is perfect! Its not.
Chaosvergn was right when he warned me about INFJs the first time i broke up with her. That she knows Intuitivly how to push my buttons and that she is taking advantage to the full. That she is deadly on an emotional level. Stupid me didnt listen.
Strangly i feel good after repeatedly texting her like a loser at 3am while she sleeps! Like i could truly move on. And i couldn't have done that had i not said everything i had to say.
I have never felt so crushed, so out of control, so humiliated in my life. Shannon hurry up with V3.2 and please beef up reality bending and the healing/clearing modules so nobody ever goes through this again. I believe the resistance im going through is also why im so sensitive. I wasn't even that happy when i was with her it just that now its over she just seems 100x better. An illusion i cant shake off.
Right now i have zero energy and zero willpower! I dont how im still standing with all the sh1t that have been going on. Must be a habit huh? I just cant quit.
INTJ
