09-20-2017, 11:33 AM
Looks like I am facing some resistance because in the last 2 - 3 days I was eating tons of sweets and sugar and also drinking more coffee than usual. The way I feel it looks like I am experiencing a huge candida growth. I was also playing a lot of video games, more than for years. But not sure if this is also resistance or simply taking care of myself and just enjoying what I like.
Today I spent the day with few people and there is one girl I felt some attraction towards. But it was different than usual because usually when this happens I get more and more thoughts what it would be like to have sex with her. This time this happened too, but to a much lesser degree. Most of the time I simply enjoyed her presence and the attraction I felt and didn't think too much about sleeping with her which indicates decreased neediness. Still, my thoughts about my (future) success with women are mostly negative even if I don't think too much about this topic right now.
Today I spent the day with few people and there is one girl I felt some attraction towards. But it was different than usual because usually when this happens I get more and more thoughts what it would be like to have sex with her. This time this happened too, but to a much lesser degree. Most of the time I simply enjoyed her presence and the attraction I felt and didn't think too much about sleeping with her which indicates decreased neediness. Still, my thoughts about my (future) success with women are mostly negative even if I don't think too much about this topic right now.
In theory, theory and practice are the same. In practice, they are not.
