09-18-2017, 06:16 AM
Some as of last night, I am 9 days sober. This time it's completely different because I have no craving what so ever. I'm good at visualization the taste of any food or drink I have already tried, but I tried it with rum when I went into the store to grab my dad something. Well rum and other alcohol didn't seem to be in my food & drink database anymore.
There is this new overwhelming energy, that I've feeling for the last 4 days. It's making hard for me to sleep, enough so that I broke my 7days of no PMO. The good news is though, because of the energy influx It made me look for new outlets. I started training for running in preparation for a marathon down the road. Because of this, I started a new PMO streak of 1 day. The other benefits of my running as been, after that one session I don't get winded going up the stairs, I'm leading by example again.
I'm starting to understanding why I feel like a different person since the crash. My theory is all the self-improvement work that I've been doing for the past 4-5 years as finally stopped be depressed by the alcohol. An example of this would be things that I understood consciously, but subconsciously there was something blocking me for acting. She women as only another human or talk to them as if there your best friend I knew this stuff. But, in the past still was always something holding me back. My confidence, self-esteem, courage, are now on point or close to the levels I've always been working towards. My best bro, who I haven't seen since before the crash even told me I sound different.
Even though I'm a student but in my classes, I've established myself as the alpha by showing my value, expertise in the subject and commanding the room with my voice. In my computer class for example, I do more teaching than the teacher people come to me with there question. It's almost the same in my math class, people have already told me I'm a better tutor than the professional ones of campus. The only reason I started helping others was because if I can teach someone else that means I understand it well enough. My math class it's possible to get a final grade of 125% and which we'll help boost my GPA since I'm not the best at English.
There is this new overwhelming energy, that I've feeling for the last 4 days. It's making hard for me to sleep, enough so that I broke my 7days of no PMO. The good news is though, because of the energy influx It made me look for new outlets. I started training for running in preparation for a marathon down the road. Because of this, I started a new PMO streak of 1 day. The other benefits of my running as been, after that one session I don't get winded going up the stairs, I'm leading by example again.
I'm starting to understanding why I feel like a different person since the crash. My theory is all the self-improvement work that I've been doing for the past 4-5 years as finally stopped be depressed by the alcohol. An example of this would be things that I understood consciously, but subconsciously there was something blocking me for acting. She women as only another human or talk to them as if there your best friend I knew this stuff. But, in the past still was always something holding me back. My confidence, self-esteem, courage, are now on point or close to the levels I've always been working towards. My best bro, who I haven't seen since before the crash even told me I sound different.
Even though I'm a student but in my classes, I've established myself as the alpha by showing my value, expertise in the subject and commanding the room with my voice. In my computer class for example, I do more teaching than the teacher people come to me with there question. It's almost the same in my math class, people have already told me I'm a better tutor than the professional ones of campus. The only reason I started helping others was because if I can teach someone else that means I understand it well enough. My math class it's possible to get a final grade of 125% and which we'll help boost my GPA since I'm not the best at English.
"I will walk tall among men and they will know me not, for today I am a new man, with a new life." - OG Mandino
