09-15-2017, 11:42 AM
Day 10
I acquired the crown jewel of nootropics - Modafinil! My insurance with this new job is awesome so I pay next to nothing for 30 pills 200mg. Day 1, 100mg Modafinil + 250mg Phenibut @ 6am. It was odd. I felt more calm, awake, and in control. Zero anxiety. It feels like the opposite of running MLS (where your thoughts are constantly racing) because your mind is so blank, so clear, free of extraneous thoughts. Each task I do takes a little longer to do than usual because my focus is so locked in, but overall I do not get distracted so in essence the task ends up getting done faster. I am more consistent. It felt like I wasnt quite all the way awake though... somewhere in between. 1 cup of coffee later and I had a lot more energy, more emotion. Online reports said coffee was a mistake for them because it gave jitters. I must have a crazy caffeine tolerance because i didn't get jittery at all.
11:30 am took another 100mg pill. Its now 12:30. I feel more locked in, more relaxed than before, but I definitely feel medicated. My driving is much less aggressive. I thought this stuff would wake me up, but....its hard to describe... I am awake, I dont necessarily need to nap, I can focus on things... its a unique feeling. Somewhat euphoric. I feel high in a way... things seem kind of surreal and care free. More to come on this later. I'm about to go home (work is dead on fridays) and play some ps4 while listening to ultrasonic. I theorize Moda will help me process subliminals better.
Last night I had more crazy dreams. Same pattern as before: sexual overtone, underlying theme of past situations (and also some imagined situations) of my success being limited.
I acquired the crown jewel of nootropics - Modafinil! My insurance with this new job is awesome so I pay next to nothing for 30 pills 200mg. Day 1, 100mg Modafinil + 250mg Phenibut @ 6am. It was odd. I felt more calm, awake, and in control. Zero anxiety. It feels like the opposite of running MLS (where your thoughts are constantly racing) because your mind is so blank, so clear, free of extraneous thoughts. Each task I do takes a little longer to do than usual because my focus is so locked in, but overall I do not get distracted so in essence the task ends up getting done faster. I am more consistent. It felt like I wasnt quite all the way awake though... somewhere in between. 1 cup of coffee later and I had a lot more energy, more emotion. Online reports said coffee was a mistake for them because it gave jitters. I must have a crazy caffeine tolerance because i didn't get jittery at all.
11:30 am took another 100mg pill. Its now 12:30. I feel more locked in, more relaxed than before, but I definitely feel medicated. My driving is much less aggressive. I thought this stuff would wake me up, but....its hard to describe... I am awake, I dont necessarily need to nap, I can focus on things... its a unique feeling. Somewhat euphoric. I feel high in a way... things seem kind of surreal and care free. More to come on this later. I'm about to go home (work is dead on fridays) and play some ps4 while listening to ultrasonic. I theorize Moda will help me process subliminals better.
Last night I had more crazy dreams. Same pattern as before: sexual overtone, underlying theme of past situations (and also some imagined situations) of my success being limited.
