07-21-2017, 08:37 AM
Because if reasons, I soon turned 180 on my new-found enthusiasm for the B-side, and was inspired to imitate another forum member by taking two nights off and only doing 2 loops on the other days. Tonight will I'll be beginning my 2nd break with this. Been feeling quite apathetic and sometimes sad this week, but I'm tolerating it.
Didn't think I'd be interested in MLS, but I gotta admit running that would make so much sense in my situation, while I really don't exactly know why I'm running DMSI. I guess I'm mostly seeking the indirect benefits from DMSI and decidedly turning a blind eye to the non-optimal effects its having on (like a lack of direction dye to conflicting goals and values). On the other hand, what I do for work is... let's say 80% learning, and if MLS worked, it could really give me an edge, and make what I spend most of my time on more enjoyable. As opposed to secretly wishing some hottie would show me her panties in some cafe for a couple if seconds and then not really getting much more than the ego boost from it. Learning just feels so healthy by comparison (I know, issues).
I think my main advantage has always been that I'm a fast learner, so its definitely something I'd easily identify with. Though now at work there's so much that I could and should be learning that I'm overwhelmed daily. Especially with DMSI A. Having a clear mind is actually one of the reasons I really wanted to run earlier versions of it. Not sure where that's at now. I would miss the attention - there's someone at the office I wouldn't mind banging. But with her pride and my situation, its not gonna happen.. and it wouldn't matter the next day... so, again, why not just disconnect from these distractions for a while?
But first, tonight is my night off. Enjoy, me!
Didn't think I'd be interested in MLS, but I gotta admit running that would make so much sense in my situation, while I really don't exactly know why I'm running DMSI. I guess I'm mostly seeking the indirect benefits from DMSI and decidedly turning a blind eye to the non-optimal effects its having on (like a lack of direction dye to conflicting goals and values). On the other hand, what I do for work is... let's say 80% learning, and if MLS worked, it could really give me an edge, and make what I spend most of my time on more enjoyable. As opposed to secretly wishing some hottie would show me her panties in some cafe for a couple if seconds and then not really getting much more than the ego boost from it. Learning just feels so healthy by comparison (I know, issues).
I think my main advantage has always been that I'm a fast learner, so its definitely something I'd easily identify with. Though now at work there's so much that I could and should be learning that I'm overwhelmed daily. Especially with DMSI A. Having a clear mind is actually one of the reasons I really wanted to run earlier versions of it. Not sure where that's at now. I would miss the attention - there's someone at the office I wouldn't mind banging. But with her pride and my situation, its not gonna happen.. and it wouldn't matter the next day... so, again, why not just disconnect from these distractions for a while?
But first, tonight is my night off. Enjoy, me!
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
