06-27-2017, 02:22 PM
Day 76 (A23) - Have been running 2 loops daily still due to exhaustion. My energy seems to be back now. However I have been unusually drawn to addictive behaviors such as caffeine, preworkout energy supplements, masturbation, nicotine, etc. It seems like this is a coping mechanism to deal with the sudden clearing and corresponding resistance brought upon by A side. So much past trauma has been cleared out I now feel like I can be myself the majority of the time at work and in social situations instead of guarding myself from incurring further trauma. It has been very freeing to have this trauma cleared away but I don't feel like I've reached a platuea yet. I had no idea how guarded I was being until DMSI lifted the fog. I'm going to run A at least another week. Longer if I continue to get noticable clearing. No rush to B since 3.2 seems to be a ways away and I'm making progress with A. I'm still loving 3.1. My relationship with my GF has been great. The best it's ever been.
Grit
