Did 3h/night for about a week, and 4h for two nights, then got a massive headache for the whole day yesterday. Was feeling real tense also. Then 3 hours last night and it seems to be gone now. So 3-4 then.
Been feeling all kinds of things, but usually I'll just try to amplify the sensations as much as they will, and that'll get rid of it pretty effectively. As in, try to have an anxiety attack right now, or whatever it is.
Sexual stuff also, but mostly I'm dreaming (stressing) about work-related stuff. Work is also going quite well; pushing it there. Often little interest in sex, though the gf is sometimes nymfoing, and that's even been an issue for me (how to perform on demand when feeling sad or hurt or holding a grudge or or just down). But I don't feel that pressured anymore since she's taking it easier and just stroking me until I get my head right.
I tried Neutron player for android, but I could not find a way create a playlist. I guess it was buggy since the buttons didn't do anything. I've been using PlayerPro and PowerAmp before that. Probably all as good, though sleep phones suck in audio quality (but are usually the onky way to get in 3-4h uninterrupted).
I'll get some girls staring or some interesting small suggestive comments on rare occasions and maybe a girl sitting next to me on a bus and the atmosphere getting really loaded. State shifting seems on point when there's a flirty situation (feeling strong, but still calm).
Especially 1 dude at work has been a dick lately, like we're competing for something and trying to make himself real important everywhere. I'm not getting in his way, I'll just leave and go do my own thing. I've been feeling more hostile lately, but I think its mostly in relation to this kinda crap, and the gf pulling various stunts. Overall all is well - mostly trying to get to where I want to be at work. Overall attitude is kinda f you atm.
Oh, and also hitting the gym again. Posterior shoulder just got too much and stings on vertical presses atm.
Been feeling all kinds of things, but usually I'll just try to amplify the sensations as much as they will, and that'll get rid of it pretty effectively. As in, try to have an anxiety attack right now, or whatever it is.
Sexual stuff also, but mostly I'm dreaming (stressing) about work-related stuff. Work is also going quite well; pushing it there. Often little interest in sex, though the gf is sometimes nymfoing, and that's even been an issue for me (how to perform on demand when feeling sad or hurt or holding a grudge or or just down). But I don't feel that pressured anymore since she's taking it easier and just stroking me until I get my head right.
I tried Neutron player for android, but I could not find a way create a playlist. I guess it was buggy since the buttons didn't do anything. I've been using PlayerPro and PowerAmp before that. Probably all as good, though sleep phones suck in audio quality (but are usually the onky way to get in 3-4h uninterrupted).
I'll get some girls staring or some interesting small suggestive comments on rare occasions and maybe a girl sitting next to me on a bus and the atmosphere getting really loaded. State shifting seems on point when there's a flirty situation (feeling strong, but still calm).
Especially 1 dude at work has been a dick lately, like we're competing for something and trying to make himself real important everywhere. I'm not getting in his way, I'll just leave and go do my own thing. I've been feeling more hostile lately, but I think its mostly in relation to this kinda crap, and the gf pulling various stunts. Overall all is well - mostly trying to get to where I want to be at work. Overall attitude is kinda f you atm.
Oh, and also hitting the gym again. Posterior shoulder just got too much and stings on vertical presses atm.
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