01-04-2012, 07:27 PM
32nd Day of Alpha Male 2011 Stage 1
Last day of stage 1. I'm trying to remember everything that happened during this stage. First two weeks I noticed people taking advantage of me, and confronted them about it. Before I would just let this go and sometimes be mad at myself for taking no action. But the confrontations ended after week two, I still sense people walking all over me especially this girl I was infatuated with which made me really frustrated and angry with myself after my realization. Up till now, I'm still angry about why I let this happen to myself and it still stings when I think or see her but I figured this has to stop and follow you guys' advice to stop pursuing her.
@ronatello - thanks for the tip! I'm not sure how to do that but here goes nothing..
what's holding me back right now I think is that my mind is clouded by the illusion that myself and this girl can become something, my brain is having a hard time letting go of that notion. It is slowly being worked on, if there is anything to make this go quicker!
Regarding dreams, so far I don't remember any significant dreams like other people had during these stage. I'm a little worried whether AM2011 is working or not because what I read is that it manifests in your dreams. But I kept dreaming of sex, usually occurs after I had a "deep sleep", I wake up around 4-6am then sleep again that's when these sexual dreams occur. It might just be me, I hadn't been watching porn since the start of AoS (2 months ago! wow, this is coming from a guy with a hard drive full of it) and I had the constant urge to spank the monkey, but my will not to do the deed prevails.
Last day of stage 1. I'm trying to remember everything that happened during this stage. First two weeks I noticed people taking advantage of me, and confronted them about it. Before I would just let this go and sometimes be mad at myself for taking no action. But the confrontations ended after week two, I still sense people walking all over me especially this girl I was infatuated with which made me really frustrated and angry with myself after my realization. Up till now, I'm still angry about why I let this happen to myself and it still stings when I think or see her but I figured this has to stop and follow you guys' advice to stop pursuing her.
@ronatello - thanks for the tip! I'm not sure how to do that but here goes nothing..
what's holding me back right now I think is that my mind is clouded by the illusion that myself and this girl can become something, my brain is having a hard time letting go of that notion. It is slowly being worked on, if there is anything to make this go quicker!
Regarding dreams, so far I don't remember any significant dreams like other people had during these stage. I'm a little worried whether AM2011 is working or not because what I read is that it manifests in your dreams. But I kept dreaming of sex, usually occurs after I had a "deep sleep", I wake up around 4-6am then sleep again that's when these sexual dreams occur. It might just be me, I hadn't been watching porn since the start of AoS (2 months ago! wow, this is coming from a guy with a hard drive full of it) and I had the constant urge to spank the monkey, but my will not to do the deed prevails.
