Ok now after around 2 weeks i made it to write again because the most time i just wasn´t in the mood to write and this is also my first point of my observations in the last weeks that i more and more felt demotivated in the most parts of my life. The only exception somehow is my workout.
I started to do an even longer and harder workout than ever before. I mentioned before that I am training 3 times a week with TRX and i recently switched from a 40 minute workout to this one https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9q1Vk5G...BS8P7McWbQ
This demotivation thing was especially the case in the last two weeks of the first 32 days of DMSI 3.1 A. And it even got worse when i tried to hear one loop of the Hybrid Track followed by one loop of the masked Track for 2 days i think.
The next thing i noticed for myself at least is that when i listened to the Masked Track with earphones on very low volume (2/15 ticks on android) i got significant more external effects like eye locks and people looking/staring at me whereever i looked (but there were still enough people and hot women which were´nt noticing me at all.) and my libido went significantly up.
Last week while i was at work i suddenly got so hard and horny without a reason (i was alone in my room) that i had to go to the bathroom to do something about it ^^
The noticeable IoI i got this time was as i left the bathroom of a bar and a young and hot blonde mother (at least 8/10) with her small child was walking some meters infront of me and noticed me. While she talked to her child she looked with a very wide smile all the time for 5-10 seconds with her head turned backwards to me while walking forward and climbing the stairs and still talking to the child but she only looked and smiled at me like we know each other or had an interaction with each other which wasn´t the case.
In a post before i mentioned that i was setting up a date with a girl and yesterday i had my second date with her but now i am sure that this will most probably be a friendship which is definetly also good for me because i definetly want to make more friends.
Somehow i like her but not the way that i want to sleep with her.
We made a trip with the Schwebebahn in Wuppertal which she did the last time in her childhood. And after that we drove by bus to the Haardt a high lying park in Wuppertal with a very nice view over the city and went through the botanical garden.
Nevertheless there wasn´t a romentical feeling or tension coming up but we still had a good and funny time together.
In the past that definetly would have been a problem for me and i would have been upset but now i am very relaxed about it and otherwise I am happy that i probably will have a new friend in her.
Last but not least. After i listened to my 32th loop of Version A on Monday i switched to Version B on Tuesday and right now I am listening the 3rd time to Version B Masked Trickling Stream on 2/15. So while i had the date yesterday i listened in the evening of the day before to Version B. But i think that she isn´t really affected by the Aura or Sniper but other women definetly are i can tell ^^
The amount and intensity of the women staring at me and eye locking with me is additionally increasing since i started Version B.
Besides i also feel even more confident and like don´t care if a woman looks at me or not.
Aaaaand after the first loop of Version B i had the weirdest and strangest and disgusting but somehow also funniest dream I´ve ever had xD
I don´t remember the whole context of the dream but i remember that one time in that dream i started to masturbate and while i tried this my penis was getting larger and larger and larger until he was like 2 meters long and you can imagine that this thing wasn´t easy to handle xD
And i also remember that suddenly my sister entered the room saw me and left directly again but in the dream it didn´t bothered me anyway.
I also noticed that now on B almost every small kid is staring at. I had a funny moment where i went up the stairs to a train station and there stood a baby buggy with the back facing me and her (young and pretty) mother or aunt or sister (idk ^^) was kneeling in front of the buggy facing me. And at the same time the baby in the buggy turned its head backwards to look at me and the girl infront of it looked at me
I started to do an even longer and harder workout than ever before. I mentioned before that I am training 3 times a week with TRX and i recently switched from a 40 minute workout to this one https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9q1Vk5G...BS8P7McWbQ
This demotivation thing was especially the case in the last two weeks of the first 32 days of DMSI 3.1 A. And it even got worse when i tried to hear one loop of the Hybrid Track followed by one loop of the masked Track for 2 days i think.
The next thing i noticed for myself at least is that when i listened to the Masked Track with earphones on very low volume (2/15 ticks on android) i got significant more external effects like eye locks and people looking/staring at me whereever i looked (but there were still enough people and hot women which were´nt noticing me at all.) and my libido went significantly up.
Last week while i was at work i suddenly got so hard and horny without a reason (i was alone in my room) that i had to go to the bathroom to do something about it ^^
The noticeable IoI i got this time was as i left the bathroom of a bar and a young and hot blonde mother (at least 8/10) with her small child was walking some meters infront of me and noticed me. While she talked to her child she looked with a very wide smile all the time for 5-10 seconds with her head turned backwards to me while walking forward and climbing the stairs and still talking to the child but she only looked and smiled at me like we know each other or had an interaction with each other which wasn´t the case.
In a post before i mentioned that i was setting up a date with a girl and yesterday i had my second date with her but now i am sure that this will most probably be a friendship which is definetly also good for me because i definetly want to make more friends.
Somehow i like her but not the way that i want to sleep with her.
We made a trip with the Schwebebahn in Wuppertal which she did the last time in her childhood. And after that we drove by bus to the Haardt a high lying park in Wuppertal with a very nice view over the city and went through the botanical garden.
Nevertheless there wasn´t a romentical feeling or tension coming up but we still had a good and funny time together.
In the past that definetly would have been a problem for me and i would have been upset but now i am very relaxed about it and otherwise I am happy that i probably will have a new friend in her.
Last but not least. After i listened to my 32th loop of Version A on Monday i switched to Version B on Tuesday and right now I am listening the 3rd time to Version B Masked Trickling Stream on 2/15. So while i had the date yesterday i listened in the evening of the day before to Version B. But i think that she isn´t really affected by the Aura or Sniper but other women definetly are i can tell ^^
The amount and intensity of the women staring at me and eye locking with me is additionally increasing since i started Version B.
Besides i also feel even more confident and like don´t care if a woman looks at me or not.
Aaaaand after the first loop of Version B i had the weirdest and strangest and disgusting but somehow also funniest dream I´ve ever had xD
I don´t remember the whole context of the dream but i remember that one time in that dream i started to masturbate and while i tried this my penis was getting larger and larger and larger until he was like 2 meters long and you can imagine that this thing wasn´t easy to handle xD
And i also remember that suddenly my sister entered the room saw me and left directly again but in the dream it didn´t bothered me anyway.
I also noticed that now on B almost every small kid is staring at. I had a funny moment where i went up the stairs to a train station and there stood a baby buggy with the back facing me and her (young and pretty) mother or aunt or sister (idk ^^) was kneeling in front of the buggy facing me. And at the same time the baby in the buggy turned its head backwards to look at me and the girl infront of it looked at me
