MLS 5g - 5.5g

[Darwinn]

The over awareness from MHS about why I'm resisting subs seems to have increased since leaving it behind. I'm very much aware that in a big part I don't want to change, I Don't want to step into the unknown of being another person. The idea that I would become something else from what I know makes me want to retreat into a hole of my old habits saying 'see this is fine by me, it works, I don't need anything else'. I have to give up what I was, the death of an old me, for something else to arise.

So many reasons are coming up to not change. But I want to.