@ZoRoEnriQue: thanks, I will try my best to shift focus to myself.
@Shannon: thanks for the reassurance, now I know what my subconscious is up to!
11th Day of AM2011 with Aura of Sexiness
Slept a little bit earlier but my sleep ended at 5am. I tried to get more but I ended up thinking with my eyes closed then I get stuck in it like a quagmire. The more I resist it the more I sink. I feel like its a routine waking up in the morning thinking about this girl and feeling down, but not as intense like yesterday.
I remember watching 'The Secret', about visualization to attract what you want to manifest. Whenever I feel an intense feeling of jealousy, I get thoughts about the girl seeing or having sex with somebody. It feels so horrible and the memory it leaves is almost vivid like it already happened. I think visualization is useful for my self improvement, but it also destroys me. I wonder Shannon, is there a sub to get me out of my head? Maybe I could use Disconnect From Negativity Within or Positive Thinking & Positive Attitude sub with AM2011 to shift my thinking.
Aura of Sexiness is doing great, women are noticing my presence more. Some of them start to wave at me at my workplace whenever I pass by them. Almost every women I have eye contact with smiles. My eye contact needs calibrating though I think. I was pissed at my brother the other day, then I looked at him. He said "don't look at me like that, it's creepy". I looked away and left. A couple of hours later I was driving and he's on the passenger seat. We were talking then he said something to tease me, I suddenly remembered why I was pissed then I looked at him with a straight face. He said the way I look at him is like James Bond. I asked him, ' charismatic? ' he said no, like I was going to break his neck and he was scared. I like this eye contact business, it feels like I'm passing or communicating my energy (or my state of thinking) through the other person's eyes. I'm not sure how to do it right, but when I do mirror affirmations, I feel my left eye is more dominant than my right. I remember Cory Skky about mirror affirmations with the right eye. Is there a difference?
My martial arts class is doing good and I love it but I'm lacking self confidence. Sensei always comments on my shyness, and he would say 'believe in yourself' whenever I do the moves. We have an open sparring by the end of the class. Its free for all but one pair at a time in front & center of the room. I want to play but something is holding me back. I never ask anyone to spar, I just wait for anybody to come up at me and ask. Some are pretty girls that ask me to spar which is good!. Sensei notices this and told me "...don't let anyone push you. don't wait for anybody to ask you. just do it." I have difficulty controlling my body, thus executing proper technique fails. I'm afraid I'd hurt somebody with my clumsiness (even though the class' motto is if you get hit, it's your fault) which makes me an awkward partner, me thinking constantly (I really want to get out of my head and be in the moment) and my confidence level.
Can't wait for Alpha Male 2011 to flush all my subconscious garbage away. I want to enjoy my Martial Arts class more, enjoy and be satisfied with myself.
@Shannon: thanks for the reassurance, now I know what my subconscious is up to!
11th Day of AM2011 with Aura of Sexiness
Slept a little bit earlier but my sleep ended at 5am. I tried to get more but I ended up thinking with my eyes closed then I get stuck in it like a quagmire. The more I resist it the more I sink. I feel like its a routine waking up in the morning thinking about this girl and feeling down, but not as intense like yesterday.
I remember watching 'The Secret', about visualization to attract what you want to manifest. Whenever I feel an intense feeling of jealousy, I get thoughts about the girl seeing or having sex with somebody. It feels so horrible and the memory it leaves is almost vivid like it already happened. I think visualization is useful for my self improvement, but it also destroys me. I wonder Shannon, is there a sub to get me out of my head? Maybe I could use Disconnect From Negativity Within or Positive Thinking & Positive Attitude sub with AM2011 to shift my thinking.
Aura of Sexiness is doing great, women are noticing my presence more. Some of them start to wave at me at my workplace whenever I pass by them. Almost every women I have eye contact with smiles. My eye contact needs calibrating though I think. I was pissed at my brother the other day, then I looked at him. He said "don't look at me like that, it's creepy". I looked away and left. A couple of hours later I was driving and he's on the passenger seat. We were talking then he said something to tease me, I suddenly remembered why I was pissed then I looked at him with a straight face. He said the way I look at him is like James Bond. I asked him, ' charismatic? ' he said no, like I was going to break his neck and he was scared. I like this eye contact business, it feels like I'm passing or communicating my energy (or my state of thinking) through the other person's eyes. I'm not sure how to do it right, but when I do mirror affirmations, I feel my left eye is more dominant than my right. I remember Cory Skky about mirror affirmations with the right eye. Is there a difference?
My martial arts class is doing good and I love it but I'm lacking self confidence. Sensei always comments on my shyness, and he would say 'believe in yourself' whenever I do the moves. We have an open sparring by the end of the class. Its free for all but one pair at a time in front & center of the room. I want to play but something is holding me back. I never ask anyone to spar, I just wait for anybody to come up at me and ask. Some are pretty girls that ask me to spar which is good!
. Sensei notices this and told me "...don't let anyone push you. don't wait for anybody to ask you. just do it." I have difficulty controlling my body, thus executing proper technique fails. I'm afraid I'd hurt somebody with my clumsiness (even though the class' motto is if you get hit, it's your fault) which makes me an awkward partner, me thinking constantly (I really want to get out of my head and be in the moment) and my confidence level.Can't wait for Alpha Male 2011 to flush all my subconscious garbage away. I want to enjoy my Martial Arts class more, enjoy and be satisfied with myself.
