Blink DMSI 3.1 Journal

[Blink]

Days 7-8: March 9th-10th, 2017

Version: 3.1A
Format: Trickling Stream Masked FLAC
Player: VLC on PC

Observations:

• Some dude at work has stopped greeting me. We barely had any interaction anyway, but at least greeted each other. I mean we're in the same room But he has decided to ignore me. Meh...
  
• On the flip side, two guys from boxing are showing buddy-buddy signs. Fist bumps, high fives, and big smile greetings! They bigger, smoother, faster, more experienced than me too. Same is happening at the gym. I'm getting nods from jacked, probably on steroid bros
  
• Apparently girlfriend wants to "jump my bones" tonight. She's pretty aggressive and initiates sex more than half the time. But this is a new level of aggressive. She hasn't texted me anything close to that before.
  
• On the topic of having sex, we haven't had it in like 3 weeks maybe? She was away for a bit and then she was on her period. Previously this would have bothered me a lot and would have put me in a pretty agitated state. Last night it just hit me that I haven't even bothered thinking about it yet!
  
• Feeling some heat from time to time. It's mostly accompanied by tingles on my lips and as if someone's squishing my face...
  
• Sometimes I feel very confused and not caring at all. Kinda like "what's the point" or "is this really happening" type feelings. As if like something's about to happen and you know you have zero control over it. Very similar to an exam you've written and you know you did so bad there's no way in hell you're gonna pass. That feeling.
  
• Headaches here and there. They last anywhere around 5 to 30 minutes. And they hurt. They switch sides too
  
• Some lights are brighter. Mainly car and traffic lights. This morning it happened in the elevator too.
  
• Sometimes some boring sounds are so soothing, it's amazing. Water filling up a cup, the sounds doing the dishes makes, a light wind thru the window. This happens with touch too. Feeling my jeans and my sheets is really soothing sometimes. That takes care of touch, hearing, and sight. This is working hard on my senses. I've never paid much attention to them previously. I wonder if smell, taste, and other senses will be worked on as well.
  

Dreams:

• I can't remember details, but that's always been the case. It's rare that I remember a full dream.
  
• In one dream, I saw old high school friends. It's been ages since I even thought about some of them. It felt really good throughout too.
  
• I was in a car in another. A friend of mine was driving. He was drunk and I was in the backseat, as he had picked up a girl and she had the passenger seat. I was scared shitless! Then the police started following us. He wouldn't stop. But it turns out they weren't really following us in the end. And we avoided a huge crash. I know there's a really strong message in this one. I gotta look it up.
  
• Dreamed of a really good friend. He called me the day after. It had been about 2 months since our last communication. He wants to hang out sometime soon. I really enjoy my time with him. It's always light, full of jokes, and busting each other's balls
  

I feel there was more to write about. I'll add if I remember.