MHS is making me even more aware of my surroundings. I can feel people's energy in public really well. It takes some getting used to and can be discomforting/distracting. I'm also hyperaware of how my own energy is projecting. Lots of stares from girls today.
Add to that I'm getting sore muscles in weird places that I wouldn't expect.
Idk, it's all sort of tiring. Once I get this off grid home project done I might as well go full monk/hermit mode.
I did cut my hand with a knife while juggling a mini watermelon in the sink this morning since I don't have a cutting board. Also binged on some ice cream this afternoon. That's probably resistance because I know I need to lay off the sugar. I wasn't phased by the cut much, even though the knife was scary sharp and it was deep into the side of my finger. Used some superglue to seal the wound after flushing it with pee (top notch first aid advice right there).
Would be nice to source Sun energy into a protective aura to prevent injuries, which is a viable daily meditation in it's own right.
Still need to get over this self-image of social awkwardness from lack of interaction (I find the general vibe of America to be anti-social). Might switch over to DMSI at this point now that 3.1 is on the table just to boost my self-esteem and give me a carefree idgaf social persona which would make interaction with others more bearable instead of being hypersensitive all the time.
Add to that I'm getting sore muscles in weird places that I wouldn't expect.
Idk, it's all sort of tiring. Once I get this off grid home project done I might as well go full monk/hermit mode.
I did cut my hand with a knife while juggling a mini watermelon in the sink this morning since I don't have a cutting board. Also binged on some ice cream this afternoon. That's probably resistance because I know I need to lay off the sugar. I wasn't phased by the cut much, even though the knife was scary sharp and it was deep into the side of my finger. Used some superglue to seal the wound after flushing it with pee (top notch first aid advice right there).
Would be nice to source Sun energy into a protective aura to prevent injuries, which is a viable daily meditation in it's own right.
Still need to get over this self-image of social awkwardness from lack of interaction (I find the general vibe of America to be anti-social). Might switch over to DMSI at this point now that 3.1 is on the table just to boost my self-esteem and give me a carefree idgaf social persona which would make interaction with others more bearable instead of being hypersensitive all the time.
