Thank you Shannon, I will continue Aura of Sexiness for a couple of days. Sometimes I get eye contact and smile from time to time whenever I pass by somebody in my work's hallways, mostly women in the building. It feels invigorating. I'm also reading John Alexander's How To Become An Alpha Male as you suggested in the instructions. I like this book, he points out beta male behaviors and I admit that I fit the description on most count. I've come to a halt with reading it as of today though, my internal issues are coming up and its making me feel unmotivated and lazy to go on with anything.
4th day of AM2011
I am pretty shaken up a few hours after waking up. I have too much jealousy and envy in me. I suddenly thought of the girl I love having sex with somebody close to me and my feelings just went downhill. I feel like I can't trust anybody. She might have or not, it's like a tennis match in my head but the last thing I want is get stuck in this state. I wonder how everybody else deals with this? Is it best to stay away from them? Somehow I feel like its running away. I'm basically confused or don't know what is the right thing to do right now.
The past few days listening to Alpha Male and reading John Alexander's book, I sort of start to sense when people are ordering me around especially at home. Occasionally I would make a come back and give an order in the manner they did and they would react to it and I just explain how it feels to be on the other end. Whenever I feel taken for granted I burst out with my emotions and sort of put it out there. Somehow I feel they don't like that and I'm sensing them distancing away from me whenever I'm around.
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I really enjoy reading everybody's journal, it keeps me motivated and move forward. I can't wait for Alpha Male's conclusion and start Sex Magnet!
4th day of AM2011
I am pretty shaken up a few hours after waking up. I have too much jealousy and envy in me. I suddenly thought of the girl I love having sex with somebody close to me and my feelings just went downhill. I feel like I can't trust anybody. She might have or not, it's like a tennis match in my head but the last thing I want is get stuck in this state. I wonder how everybody else deals with this? Is it best to stay away from them? Somehow I feel like its running away. I'm basically confused or don't know what is the right thing to do right now.
The past few days listening to Alpha Male and reading John Alexander's book, I sort of start to sense when people are ordering me around especially at home. Occasionally I would make a come back and give an order in the manner they did and they would react to it and I just explain how it feels to be on the other end. Whenever I feel taken for granted I burst out with my emotions and sort of put it out there. Somehow I feel they don't like that and I'm sensing them distancing away from me whenever I'm around.
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I really enjoy reading everybody's journal, it keeps me motivated and move forward. I can't wait for Alpha Male's conclusion and start Sex Magnet!
