Thanks guys. This has been a cycle all my life that I get infatuated and end up with myself only to blame. But I'm longing for a change and break this cycle.
I'd like to ask you guys a question, I'm 2 weeks away from the 32 days minimum running of Aura of Sexiness sub. I plan on going for Absolute Self Confidence 4g then Alpha Male 2011 but would you guys suggest I start AM2011 next instead? My confidence is ant hill but if I can get that from Alpha Male set as well...
~Day 21~
I just love it when my mood swings from negative to positive, with yourself consciously forcing it to and succeed.
I woke this morning feeling all lazy to get up and do exercise. Its starting to chill here in Florida. I tried to stay asleep but my conscious mind began thinking and won't stop. What's worse is that the thoughts that comes up are all negative. I always try to battle this by remembering Cory Skyy teachings: on waking up imagine something good that has happened in the past or something that you want in the future that makes you happy, smile and put a smirk in your face. I did just that and went out to jog, stretch and crunches/push ups.
I felt better but then I had to force a conversation with my sister which ended in disaster. I was left home alone getting ready for school then work but I noticed that I feel so terrible. This time I willfully tried to pull myself together. Ever since I started Aura of Sexiness, I feel like I owe it to myself to feel good all the time. Its like there is some kind of 'guardian' in my head that suggests things like go workout, look in the mirror and see that sexy man. I went up to my bathroom, stared at my left eye and performed mirror affirmations then did the same to the right eye.
I was feeling better already. Driving to work I have my AoS sub playing, my brain keeps popping up negative thoughts about the girl I'm infatuated with then feelings of envy and jealousy kicks in. What's different this time is that I consciously get rid of the thought and clear my mind. Another one pops out I try to snap my fingers or wave my hand to signal myself to clear the mind. This stuff continued on while working, I was still listening to AoS sub through headphones. I felt really tired the whole day.
I headed to my martial arts academy after work, I left early for it. I do this whenever I feel tired, stressed out or breaking down emotionally and most of the time it cures...
...and it did.
I had a wonderful class today. I felt different when I did the exercises. I was more confident and I can quickly grasp and understand what to do for the most part. What made it better is I got the pretty girl as my sparring partner for 1/3 of my time there. She was kind of scared to get hit by me because I'm a beginner and have little to no control of my movements. But we did great. I went in really tired and stressed out, came out happy and smiling.
Home was not that chaotic as usual. I stopped by mickeyD's and bought some food for me and my siblings. The cashier lady and I had a pretty good amount of eye contact without saying anything. I felt some kind of energy of some sort while we're doing it for that brief amount of time. She gave me this wide smile when I left the window. I'm starting to get a feeling for eye contact. I've had a habit of looking down most of the time or looking around while conversing. Moving on, I resisted the urge to confront my sister and just let it go. I know where it leads to, and I chose to stay happy. I can say I gained a little self love and respect for that.
I'd like to ask you guys a question, I'm 2 weeks away from the 32 days minimum running of Aura of Sexiness sub. I plan on going for Absolute Self Confidence 4g then Alpha Male 2011 but would you guys suggest I start AM2011 next instead? My confidence is ant hill but if I can get that from Alpha Male set as well...
~Day 21~
I just love it when my mood swings from negative to positive, with yourself consciously forcing it to and succeed.
I woke this morning feeling all lazy to get up and do exercise. Its starting to chill here in Florida. I tried to stay asleep but my conscious mind began thinking and won't stop. What's worse is that the thoughts that comes up are all negative. I always try to battle this by remembering Cory Skyy teachings: on waking up imagine something good that has happened in the past or something that you want in the future that makes you happy, smile and put a smirk in your face. I did just that and went out to jog, stretch and crunches/push ups.
I felt better but then I had to force a conversation with my sister which ended in disaster. I was left home alone getting ready for school then work but I noticed that I feel so terrible. This time I willfully tried to pull myself together. Ever since I started Aura of Sexiness, I feel like I owe it to myself to feel good all the time. Its like there is some kind of 'guardian' in my head that suggests things like go workout, look in the mirror and see that sexy man. I went up to my bathroom, stared at my left eye and performed mirror affirmations then did the same to the right eye.
I was feeling better already. Driving to work I have my AoS sub playing, my brain keeps popping up negative thoughts about the girl I'm infatuated with then feelings of envy and jealousy kicks in. What's different this time is that I consciously get rid of the thought and clear my mind. Another one pops out I try to snap my fingers or wave my hand to signal myself to clear the mind. This stuff continued on while working, I was still listening to AoS sub through headphones. I felt really tired the whole day.
I headed to my martial arts academy after work, I left early for it. I do this whenever I feel tired, stressed out or breaking down emotionally and most of the time it cures...
...and it did.
I had a wonderful class today. I felt different when I did the exercises. I was more confident and I can quickly grasp and understand what to do for the most part. What made it better is I got the pretty girl as my sparring partner for 1/3 of my time there. She was kind of scared to get hit by me because I'm a beginner and have little to no control of my movements. But we did great. I went in really tired and stressed out, came out happy and smiling.
Home was not that chaotic as usual. I stopped by mickeyD's and bought some food for me and my siblings. The cashier lady and I had a pretty good amount of eye contact without saying anything. I felt some kind of energy of some sort while we're doing it for that brief amount of time. She gave me this wide smile when I left the window. I'm starting to get a feeling for eye contact. I've had a habit of looking down most of the time or looking around while conversing. Moving on, I resisted the urge to confront my sister and just let it go. I know where it leads to, and I chose to stay happy. I can say I gained a little self love and respect for that.
