~Stand tall and shake the heavens~

[enoch]

Twenty days into the sub and I have been in a pool of negativity lately. Whenever I am awake and put on my headphones to listen to AoS sub a lot of negative thoughts come up. Mostly about jealousy, envy, loneliness and neediness. I caught myself off guard yesterday having these thoughts linger I also think that it is a self fulfilling prophecy because I'm thinking too much about it then I feel worse. I'm infatuated with this girl and the thought of losing her to somebody drives me crazy.

I'm wondering, is this some kind of resistance from my subconscious to bring me down? or is it just releasing all these negativity within me. I guess I'm confused as well