01-29-2017, 03:46 AM
It's been 11 days since I've been off DMSI and I have noticed something really interesting.
For last two days (yesterday and today) I've been having a repeat of the flashbacks that I spoke about on 15th Jan. This time I was just at home, trying to tidy up my place. While I was doing that, memories of various incidents and conversations - I've had with girls in the past, started to surface and I almost relived those moments.
I could very clearly feel the emotions associated with these incident/conversations. At first I thought I was just feeling low and down and that's what it was, however after a nap I felt much better and energised. Also, this morning after waking up I went out for a bit of an exercise and eventually ended up in the gym and I was doing cardio for more than an hour. Came back home and the same thing continued during the course of the day.
Most of these memories were of the positive moments and happy times I've had with the girls in my life in last few years. I felt like I longed for happy times with a girl. There were some negative events and negative emotions too and a few painful moments as well. Reliving those moments has been very relaxing. I feel like something is happening (e.g. a release or healing from a series of mini traumas).
I feel like it's a continuation of the healing that began on 15th Jan (while I was still listening to DMSI) and I feel like DMSI is still working after not having listened to the sub for 11 days now. Well, call it bloom or the P3/P4/P5 effect... something is still going on and I'm glad I decided to take a break from the sub upon Shannon's suggestion.
For last two days (yesterday and today) I've been having a repeat of the flashbacks that I spoke about on 15th Jan. This time I was just at home, trying to tidy up my place. While I was doing that, memories of various incidents and conversations - I've had with girls in the past, started to surface and I almost relived those moments.
I could very clearly feel the emotions associated with these incident/conversations. At first I thought I was just feeling low and down and that's what it was, however after a nap I felt much better and energised. Also, this morning after waking up I went out for a bit of an exercise and eventually ended up in the gym and I was doing cardio for more than an hour. Came back home and the same thing continued during the course of the day.
Most of these memories were of the positive moments and happy times I've had with the girls in my life in last few years. I felt like I longed for happy times with a girl. There were some negative events and negative emotions too and a few painful moments as well. Reliving those moments has been very relaxing. I feel like something is happening (e.g. a release or healing from a series of mini traumas).
I feel like it's a continuation of the healing that began on 15th Jan (while I was still listening to DMSI) and I feel like DMSI is still working after not having listened to the sub for 11 days now. Well, call it bloom or the P3/P4/P5 effect... something is still going on and I'm glad I decided to take a break from the sub upon Shannon's suggestion.
