I haven't made an update here in a while, so here goes.
- I'm realizing that over the last few years I've developed an increasing tendency to deny myself the pleasures of life... hiding behind the rationale that they're transient, superficial and not fulfilling. This started long before IML was in the picture, but it does explain in part why I did not get optimal results from 3 runs of BASE... and why I'm still mostly healing on DMSI. As always, just being aware of it already helps.
- Respect hits are getting ridiculous and are truly making me uncomfortable. As an ENTP, I would much rather let loose and greet strangers with "what's up, dude", but this aura seems to make people want to interact with me in much more formal ways. I know they mean well, but all I want to do is cringe. lol
- IOIs are up there as well, although not as ridiculous. However, reading body language in my everyday life is apparently not my strong suit. I think I'm fluent enough when I'm in a bar, for instance, and my sole purpose for being there is socializing. My guess is I'm resisting any programming that changes the way I perceive myself, which in turn prevents me from seeing the indicators for what they are. I'm really not used to seeing heavy IOIs while I'm essentially minding my own business.
All in all, one interesting breakthrough and two champagne problems that are probably evidence of resistance. I'm still running v.3.0.1a, I intend to do so at least until the end of the month, possibly even after that.
- I'm realizing that over the last few years I've developed an increasing tendency to deny myself the pleasures of life... hiding behind the rationale that they're transient, superficial and not fulfilling. This started long before IML was in the picture, but it does explain in part why I did not get optimal results from 3 runs of BASE... and why I'm still mostly healing on DMSI. As always, just being aware of it already helps.
- Respect hits are getting ridiculous and are truly making me uncomfortable. As an ENTP, I would much rather let loose and greet strangers with "what's up, dude", but this aura seems to make people want to interact with me in much more formal ways. I know they mean well, but all I want to do is cringe. lol
- IOIs are up there as well, although not as ridiculous. However, reading body language in my everyday life is apparently not my strong suit. I think I'm fluent enough when I'm in a bar, for instance, and my sole purpose for being there is socializing. My guess is I'm resisting any programming that changes the way I perceive myself, which in turn prevents me from seeing the indicators for what they are. I'm really not used to seeing heavy IOIs while I'm essentially minding my own business.
All in all, one interesting breakthrough and two champagne problems that are probably evidence of resistance. I'm still running v.3.0.1a, I intend to do so at least until the end of the month, possibly even after that.
