E2 ... thinking of suicide

[Shannon]

ive been on E2 for about 4 months now after having run AM6 3 times. i just hit a real rough patch... headaches and backaches plus very depressing thoughts. things just seem hopeless for me right now. i dont think i have anything to live for. please help.

If you're feeling hopeless, then it's time to take a break from E2. It's your subconscious mind's way of telling you it isn't ready for this yet.

There's some things that I always remembered when I was feeling hopeless and/or suicidal, and they helped me come through.

First, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary issue. Choosing a permanent solution to a temporary issue is very unwise.

Second, remember and realize that it is a temporary issue. This too shall pass. Since all things happen in cycles, it is inevitable that it will change to something better.

Third, think of those who care about you. What would you hurting or killing yourself do to them? Whenever I was really wanting to kill myself, I would think about it and I realized, I can't do that to my friends or family. My pain is only one person's pain, but me killing myself multiplies my pain by how many undeserving people?

Fourth, it is good that you are asking for help. You should ask for help from people who are physically in your life, and have them help you more directly.

Fifth, be sure to get outside, get enough direct sunlight, and make sure you're not eating too much in the way of carbohydrates. Whenever I feel depressed, I can tell what kind of depression it is because if I eat some protein, I will alleviate depression caused by an imbalance of diet, and the feeling of hopelessness goes away in about 20 minutes. If it does not, then I know that my depression is emotionally caused. This may or may not be a determining technique for you, but diet plays a big part in brain chemistry and mental health. Also take a good multi-vitamin.

Sixth, get some exercise. Go for a walk, jog, run, do something. Exercise is also good for helping the feelings of hopelessness.

Seventh, try to find something that will make you happier to do. I find that sometimes, when I am down and feeling hopeless, riding my hover board around my city is very helpful. I don't know why, but it is. Do something that makes you engage, and is enjoyable for you.

And eighth, keep in contact with us. We obviously care and don't want to see you hurt yourself.

Take a break from E2 for a while and let the feelings pass. Take a break. Then try using it at a rate of 1-3 loops a day and see how that works once you're feeling better.