01-19-2017, 06:49 AM
Bloom, Day 5.
About to do some morning boxing. May do some night boxing too. I feel a bit better today. Still kinda melancholy. Life feels less "intense" than when I'm on the sub. Less on edge.
I had some crazy zombie dreams last night. I was part of some kind of task squad to hunt them down. It was "scary," but it... wasn't? As if I were conquering the fears instead of letting them dominate me.
I'm noticing that my usually negative mother is being very much more positive today. When I was talking about how down I've been lately, she suddenly went into this rant about how I should speak words of affirmation every morning. She say, 'Something good is going to happen to me today -- something good's going to to happen to someone, it might as well be me."
Kinda silly advice because it promotes passivity, but I do agree with the mindset that I shouldn't keep speaking negative. That's new... I'm wondering if my aura is influencing--
Wait, doesn't DMSI have an aura of healing? Hmm...
About to do some morning boxing. May do some night boxing too. I feel a bit better today. Still kinda melancholy. Life feels less "intense" than when I'm on the sub. Less on edge.
I had some crazy zombie dreams last night. I was part of some kind of task squad to hunt them down. It was "scary," but it... wasn't? As if I were conquering the fears instead of letting them dominate me.
I'm noticing that my usually negative mother is being very much more positive today. When I was talking about how down I've been lately, she suddenly went into this rant about how I should speak words of affirmation every morning. She say, 'Something good is going to happen to me today -- something good's going to to happen to someone, it might as well be me."
Kinda silly advice because it promotes passivity, but I do agree with the mindset that I shouldn't keep speaking negative. That's new... I'm wondering if my aura is influencing--
Wait, doesn't DMSI have an aura of healing? Hmm...
