01-17-2017, 03:50 AM
I'm keeping up with DMSI v.3.0.1a at least until the end of the month. I'll try to do a 3-7 day pause before v3.1 just to see if there's a bloom... and to make the transition just a bit easier.
Anyway, I keep on healing, apparently.
I may have found the source of the fear I've been experiencing since I started DMSI. If I'm right, it's related to my relationship with my compulsively overbearing mother. Fear and feelings of inadequacy seem to be the main culprit that's healing. Not sure if I did the right thing by digging it up to a conscious level, but at least now I'm catching myself as this type of fear gets triggered... which in effect diminishes it over time.
No sex yet, though. I decided to stop keeping in touch with the one girl I've been seeing semi-casually lately. My experience with her was no longer rewarding to me and she seemed disinterested in becoming more attractive for me... so there you go. DMSI did a good job masking the emotions that arose and now, even though it's probably still processing on some level, I feel as if I never knew her.
Anyway, I keep on healing, apparently.
I may have found the source of the fear I've been experiencing since I started DMSI. If I'm right, it's related to my relationship with my compulsively overbearing mother. Fear and feelings of inadequacy seem to be the main culprit that's healing. Not sure if I did the right thing by digging it up to a conscious level, but at least now I'm catching myself as this type of fear gets triggered... which in effect diminishes it over time.
No sex yet, though. I decided to stop keeping in touch with the one girl I've been seeing semi-casually lately. My experience with her was no longer rewarding to me and she seemed disinterested in becoming more attractive for me... so there you go. DMSI did a good job masking the emotions that arose and now, even though it's probably still processing on some level, I feel as if I never knew her.
