11-25-2016, 07:51 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-25-2016, 10:53 PM by Dutchman610.)
Day 15 (Thursday)
So, not much to report during the day. All though I did go for a new 45min walk to occupy my time. Also did some errors with my mom, had some heart to heart.
Later in the night, I went for another walk to clear my head. I didn't know where I was going just followed my intuition. Once I decided to head to the a bar endorphins start going, instead of my normal feeling of fear when heading into a social situation. I ended up at a bar about 45min away, I've been to this bar before last time wasn't any fun. This time, I found two attractive waitress I'd like to bend over a table. Anyways, I had a good time didn't get drunk just kept a buzz going switching between water and beer.
I also had a break though well talking to one of my best buddies, I realize from the experience I had over last weekend (with making dude friends). When I finally overcome this fear to do with women, I well be set. Because, I make long term friends really easier. Some times I think, if only I was gay life would be so much easier. Than I remember, the easier way isn't always the right way(not to sound homophobic). But, I'm stuck with women nothing I can do.
So, not much to report during the day. All though I did go for a new 45min walk to occupy my time. Also did some errors with my mom, had some heart to heart.
Later in the night, I went for another walk to clear my head. I didn't know where I was going just followed my intuition. Once I decided to head to the a bar endorphins start going, instead of my normal feeling of fear when heading into a social situation. I ended up at a bar about 45min away, I've been to this bar before last time wasn't any fun. This time, I found two attractive waitress I'd like to bend over a table. Anyways, I had a good time didn't get drunk just kept a buzz going switching between water and beer.
I also had a break though well talking to one of my best buddies, I realize from the experience I had over last weekend (with making dude friends). When I finally overcome this fear to do with women, I well be set. Because, I make long term friends really easier. Some times I think, if only I was gay life would be so much easier. Than I remember, the easier way isn't always the right way(not to sound homophobic). But, I'm stuck with women nothing I can do.
"I will walk tall among men and they will know me not, for today I am a new man, with a new life." - OG Mandino
