11-19-2016, 02:49 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-19-2016, 02:49 PM by JackOfHearts.)
On self effect with this version, I'm wondering if this version does work better for me healing wise at least on me compared to 2.5. I can't know for sure obviously. But each night and each day it seems something gets work on slowly but surely. On 2.5 I felt like nothing was happening sometimes. Maybe 2.5 is too much and V1 is a bit like Ephra 2 working more slowly but at least moving instead of being resisted completely. 2.5 is supposed to be more powerful but I personalty can't attest to that based on my experience right now. I will let Shannon be the judge on that because I don't know how he programmed 2.5 vs V1 so I'm blind here.
I got forceful while playing poker with my friends today, I pushed the limit a little further, I teased my cousin a lot more, he is always the one putting everyone down usually. But this time I enjoyed attacking him first and exaggeratedly like he does with everyone, he certainly didn't like it. I just wanted to make him explode, I don't like people abusing others and worst people around him seems to appreciate being abused by him as they don't know they are being abused or are too weak to fight back.
Negative stuff after this feel free to skip.
Which bring me to my next “complain” today, this was one is on my mind for a long time. I don't enjoy girls as much, it's supposed to happen I know about that but right now it feels like too much. And I'm contradicting myself here because usually I'm the guy who would advocate the opposite argument. But today I'm doubting it. Maybe there a limit when I don't care at all anymore about any girl to the point that I wouldn't even enjoy spending time with them that's what I'm thinking about. Resistance or fear maybe. This is me complaining more because I'm more angry. I'm very bitchy right now.
My mental health is all over the place, maybe this DMSI is more powerful than SM3 indeed, my angry attitude seems to be a notch higher than on SM3. I'm tired of those subliminals side effects. I was working on a IT task last week and I couldn't focus on it without getting angry, my patience was very low, I couldn't do the job properly and I probably couldn't work in the IT field anymore with such attitude, I would get bored and throw everything away. Hopefully this is just a temporarily effect. These are little side effects that are not easy to handle overtime. Another example is that when something taste or smell a little bad I become very disgusted, I used to not care about bad smell or eating a pussy for example. Right now I'm disgusted by those little things. My GF has been blowing me almost every day we met and I never did it for her, it was disgusting.
I got forceful while playing poker with my friends today, I pushed the limit a little further, I teased my cousin a lot more, he is always the one putting everyone down usually. But this time I enjoyed attacking him first and exaggeratedly like he does with everyone, he certainly didn't like it. I just wanted to make him explode, I don't like people abusing others and worst people around him seems to appreciate being abused by him as they don't know they are being abused or are too weak to fight back.
Negative stuff after this feel free to skip.
Which bring me to my next “complain” today, this was one is on my mind for a long time. I don't enjoy girls as much, it's supposed to happen I know about that but right now it feels like too much. And I'm contradicting myself here because usually I'm the guy who would advocate the opposite argument. But today I'm doubting it. Maybe there a limit when I don't care at all anymore about any girl to the point that I wouldn't even enjoy spending time with them that's what I'm thinking about. Resistance or fear maybe. This is me complaining more because I'm more angry. I'm very bitchy right now.
My mental health is all over the place, maybe this DMSI is more powerful than SM3 indeed, my angry attitude seems to be a notch higher than on SM3. I'm tired of those subliminals side effects. I was working on a IT task last week and I couldn't focus on it without getting angry, my patience was very low, I couldn't do the job properly and I probably couldn't work in the IT field anymore with such attitude, I would get bored and throw everything away. Hopefully this is just a temporarily effect. These are little side effects that are not easy to handle overtime. Another example is that when something taste or smell a little bad I become very disgusted, I used to not care about bad smell or eating a pussy for example. Right now I'm disgusted by those little things. My GF has been blowing me almost every day we met and I never did it for her, it was disgusting.
