11-13-2016, 08:28 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-18-2016, 10:24 AM by Dutchman610.)
Day 3 (Saturday)
I went out to a party to watch the ufc fight. I had a lot of fun, was a lot more alpha than previous times hanging out with the same group. I was just in a flow state of being dominant without trying to be dominant. I did end up making a bit off an ass of myself at the end of the night. They told I wasn't ever invited back, I understood why. But, I didn't really feel guilt or shame just went with the flow. I was planning on going to a bar instead, so I look at positive side one less excuse for not meetings new people. Not how or why but all my pain in my back has gone(my guess it was some kind of resistance). So, all around good night.
Day 4 (Sunday)
In the morning, I received a text saying it was all good. We were all a bit to drunk I suppose. I'm thinking it had to happen the way it did for me to over come some guilt about my drink. Which I also didn't have when I awoke I normally have a ton after a night of drinking. I have a new prospective and I don't believe I'll be drinking anymore. Plus I read it affects the state-shifting of DMSI anyway.
I have also noticed my voice has changed(noticed on day 2) but thought it was just a short time thing. But, I don't know how people perceive it. It's more relaxed, assertive, and just being not trying.
I did try to go to sleep but having a tough time, have this feeling of anxiety in my chest. I was going to watch some porn, that always got me sleep before. But, decided to write in my journal instead. That always helps me to deal with any emotions.
Here's to another day of being awesome.
I went out to a party to watch the ufc fight. I had a lot of fun, was a lot more alpha than previous times hanging out with the same group. I was just in a flow state of being dominant without trying to be dominant. I did end up making a bit off an ass of myself at the end of the night. They told I wasn't ever invited back, I understood why. But, I didn't really feel guilt or shame just went with the flow. I was planning on going to a bar instead, so I look at positive side one less excuse for not meetings new people. Not how or why but all my pain in my back has gone(my guess it was some kind of resistance). So, all around good night.
Day 4 (Sunday)
In the morning, I received a text saying it was all good. We were all a bit to drunk I suppose. I'm thinking it had to happen the way it did for me to over come some guilt about my drink. Which I also didn't have when I awoke I normally have a ton after a night of drinking. I have a new prospective and I don't believe I'll be drinking anymore. Plus I read it affects the state-shifting of DMSI anyway.
I have also noticed my voice has changed(noticed on day 2) but thought it was just a short time thing. But, I don't know how people perceive it. It's more relaxed, assertive, and just being not trying.
I did try to go to sleep but having a tough time, have this feeling of anxiety in my chest. I was going to watch some porn, that always got me sleep before. But, decided to write in my journal instead. That always helps me to deal with any emotions.
Here's to another day of being awesome.
"I will walk tall among men and they will know me not, for today I am a new man, with a new life." - OG Mandino
