08-19-2016, 10:42 PM
Alright... So last night, I was in the kitchen drinking water from a glass cup. The bottom of the cup was kinda dirty so I lifted it up to see if it was dirty inside or outside. Then my mom walks in and sees me checking out the bottom of the cup and asks me if I smashed the cup. I didn't respond. She asks if water is leaking out the bottom because I smashed the cup. She comes over and touches the table to see if the water has spilled out. Then she walked away. It wasn't a joke; she was completely serious. How can I try to improve myself when others just assume I'm terrible. Yes, in the past I've had many, many outbursts of anger: breaking windows, throwing phones at ceilings, breaking ceiling light, punching holes in the wall... And yeah I guess it's right for her to assume the worse. And she always does. I was literally just checking the bottom of the cup to see if it's dirty and she would think I broke the cup. She does this all the time and I would get angry just to show her that I don't appreciate her thinking I'm always doing something terrible. Kinda counterproductive, I know...
But the amazing thing that happened was, this time I didn't at all get angry. I was just like what are you talking about. But absolute no anger. However, I'm getting pretty angry just reflecting on this. Idk... Maybe I should let it be and stop thinking about it.
Today however, my anger levels are back to "normal". Everything irritates me. I guess progress isn't a straight line.
But the amazing thing that happened was, this time I didn't at all get angry. I was just like what are you talking about. But absolute no anger. However, I'm getting pretty angry just reflecting on this. Idk... Maybe I should let it be and stop thinking about it.
Today however, my anger levels are back to "normal". Everything irritates me. I guess progress isn't a straight line.
